Depression, attitude, what to do next?

[annesco]

So I am not sure if my symptoms are getting worse, or if I need to change my protocol, or what. Today I can feel them crawling a lot, especially on my legs, by butt, and in my eyes. Maybe it's because I've been coming into the office so much and so my chair is really infested; maybe it's because the pants I'm wearing were washed two days ago (but have been in a plastic bag since). Maybe it's because what I'm doing is wearing thin. I've been using the eyebright drops in an eyewash for about a week, which seemed to help, but I've noticed increased activity for the past couple of days. Interestingly, my eyelashes, which had been broken and twisted for a long time, have grown back. I have also noticed that the crawliness has increased a bit, where before I would go up to three days almost symptom-free. The worst part is, that my mood has changed, and I am feeling very depressed and hopeless, and have an underlying anxiety all of the time. I have recently resumed exercising again, and am doing some lymphatic stimulating things, but have experienced soreness in the glands with that too. My ears have cleared out, but now I can feel activity in there too. I'm more tired than I was before, and I'm actually sleeping better. I've experienced quite a bit of fiber balls falling off of me after my nightly showers lately when I apply the tea tree and lavendar oils, but my feet are bothering me more than they did before. It's such a mixture of positive and negatives, that I don't know what to think or what to do next.

I wish I could talk to someone about this, but as we all know, there is noone.

I can't even believe that I fleetingly considered that maybe it's not worth all the effort...

I salute you all who have dealt with this for so much longer. I am afraid of some of the fleeting thoughts I've had lately. How to keep up hope?

[Pollyringworm]

I'm sending you my contact information. I'm here to talk, not argue. We can figure out what works together.

[MeaganM]

Ann, it's likely that what you are doing is working and you are having some herxing. I truly believe that if a treatment is working, then symptoms will get worse before they get better. Hang in there. Everything you describe sounds like a Herx Reaction.

[annesco]

Originally Posted by MeaganM

Ann, it's likely that what you are doing is working and you are having some herxing. I truly believe that if a treatment is working, then symptoms will get worse before they get better. Hang in there. Everything you describe sounds like a Herx Reaction.

You really think so? Oh, I hope so! I have added Olive Leaf Extract and Oregano oil recently, maybe about ten days ago for the antibacterial and antifungal properties. That's when I started noticing the increased activity and changes, and then the lymphatic herbs and exericising.

Thanks so much for your words of encouragement. They mean so much. I'm like a blind person in a maze...

[Pollyringworm]

Does your herxing include crawling? I usually get a terrible headache and feel nauseated.

[annesco]

Originally Posted by Pollyringworm

Does your herxing include crawling? I usually get a terrible headache and feel nauseated.

Yes, I have increased crawling. I have also been somewhat headachey and slightly nauseous, some slight congestion too. One thing I have also noticed is that I was always freezing before, and now my body temperature seems to have regulated itself. As of a few days ago, maybe a week or so, my hair isn't falling out in the shower like it was, and the paper cuts on my hands are much better. But the increased activity has me worried.

[Pollyringworm]

Originally Posted by annesco

Yes, I have increased crawling. I have also been somewhat headachey and slightly nauseous, some slight congestion too. One thing I have also noticed is that I was always freezing before, and now my body temperature seems to have regulated itself. As of a few days ago, maybe a week or so, my hair isn't falling out in the shower like it was, and the paper cuts on my hands are much better. But the increased activity has me worried.

I'm having increased activity right now, too. I happens when I clean aggressively, or in this case, spray the Moldstat. I think I've upset something in my home and it's back to bugging me again. It happens anytime I vacuum the walls and "dust" with the vacuum attachments. It's usually temporary and things die down. The Moldstat has nearly eliminated the lint, so I feel that it's been successful. A small victory, but a victory nonetheless.

Any progress is progress. It sounds like you've gotten better. That's HUGE. Don't get depressed just yet. This thing is so resistant to anything, so feeling better means you're one step closer to beating it down. The key is to keep it there.

I wonder if you can put plastic on your office chair at work...

[annesco]

Originally Posted by Pollyringworm

I'm having increased activity right now, too. I happens when I clean aggressively, or in this case, spray the Moldstat. I think I've upset something in my home and it's back to bugging me again. It happens anytime I vacuum the walls and "dust" with the vacuum attachments. It's usually temporary and things die down. The Moldstat has nearly eliminated the lint, so I feel that it's been successful. A small victory, but a victory nonetheless.

Any progress is progress. It sounds like you've gotten better. That's HUGE. Don't get depressed just yet. This thing is so resistant to anything, so feeling better means you're one step closer to beating it down. The key is to keep it there.

I wonder if you can put plastic on your office chair at work...

Yes, I've noticed that too, when cleaning. I think that when we vacuum, we stir things up, and thus the increased activity. But I haven't vacuumed in a couple of days (I'm due tonight after work). I wore disposable non-latex gloves on Saturday to wash some walls, and I had some of the yellow "goo" inside the finger tips. Not a lot, but some, which was kind of disappointing. I don't know if I'm getting better, or if it's just gearing up to attack me somewhere else. The interesting thing is I am having this sensation of crawling things actually falling or almost "jumping" off of me today. Have you ever experienced this? I can't see anything, but it really does feel like that. Maybe they're jumping into my clothes off of my face and neck...

I am looking for a vinyl pillow that I can take with me not only in the office, but anywhere. If it were only summertime, I would find one easily, but now it's almost winter, they're nowhere to be found. I'll probably have to order one.

[Pollyringworm]

I haven't had that sensation, but I have felt as if something is crawling up my feet from the floor at times.

Honestly, we may not all have the same thing. For some reason the parasitologists think that we don't have a parasite problem in the United States. Why wouldn't we? We have troops stationed all over the world, bringing back whatever they brush against home with them. Are we that naive to think that they won't thrive here as they did overseas?

My husband is military and I won't let him bring a thing back in the house that he used overseas. His boots and things he's still using, so there's things I can't control.

If you can't find a totally vinyl pillow, you can always encase one in a vinyl pillow protector. My whole bed is enclosed in vinyl, including my pillows.