over my head,overwhelmed,outnumbered

[maggillamorgellan]

I'm having a rough night. I was away for 2 days and suffering a little but had my mom to lean on a bit. now I'm back in my apartment and its so infested and infected.

I was trying to educate my self when i got an idea to rub borax on my hands and arms.....it felt like a war and i was at the front lines and my ammo got wet and i was wearing a bullseye.
desperate and feeling need for help and no time to find out anything for myself. Im sure im wasting my time and not qualified to battle this alone, or making terrible mistakes That will increase their ability to re infect me. they got my head tonight so bad that i just threw on selsen blue on my dry wormy head, and flipped when i saw these are not microscopic any more but having me scared of my own scalps tenants that appear serpentine and rodent like.
DO I SOUND CRAZY yet? i feel they're so visible now , how can anyone not believe me if they saw my skin pulsating and ejaculating slimey yellow pus.

I CANT BEAR another session of maybe you should see a psychiatrist? you seem stressed out. ah YEAH
i wanted to buy hydrogen peroxide but couldnt find a way to leave my house
and even get dressed or wash the shampoo out of my hair as i was being attacked and shocked by them at my feet , in my now sweaty powdered shoes and couldnt find a flat uninhabited shirt or jacket to wear. what do you do to get dressed?

i have to disinfect this environment and not confident i can accomplish this alone,or know what is effective enough, as im cultivating a serious bacteria phobia,(Still tugging my hair on my footpowder boraxed drizzled bed).

If i ever am well enough, i want to raise awareness and money for a cure in a bike marathon.(ALA aids rides, breast cancer M.S.ETC, but wonder if ill ever see that day at the rate im going.

[sammy]

Try some xanax until you get your self in an emotional state too deal with anything sammy

[Pollyringworm]

My three year old forces me to get up and go. Cleaning takes your mind off some things. I say it all the time but youve got to clear your skin every night. Your environment will seem a lot better if you do. Theraneem lotion gets the goo from your pores. Amazon prime delivers in two days. I even use theraneem gel on my scalp, it stops the movement immediately and i can sleep.

I think one big key to healing yourself is constantly work on your skin.

Also, if youve got the dust, vacuum real slow to keep it from floating up and away when you move over it. Just walking in the carpet creates a storm of these things in the air.

Check out sportsmans posts about treatment protocol. Also, soaking body parts in bentonite clay or using it to cover skin, causes this crap to come to surface. Dont put it down the drain, though.

[janedoe]

i found something perfect for fleas, keep in mind, fleas are horredous and now come in new shapes and sizes, anywho, take an old spray bottle, fill half or more with water, cut and squeeze as many fresh lemons ( 3 big ones if they are fresh) and spray that on your ankles or whever bugs are biting you. you can spray it on your pet, but if they have bites, it will sting so they probably wont like it. dont bother spraying bedding, this only works to spray onto flesh. buggys hate the taste of lemon. so water and lemon.. it works, its kept me from losing my mind. its funny, you spray your ankles real good, on the skin, not cloth, and they jump right off... it works. and its cheap.. try for other bugs, but nothing beats a good vacumn.

[maggillamorgellan]

great advise, i knew i saved those for a rainey day... maybe i just wont care as much, THE lemons i you know....
thanks for any and all advise. how can i get them out of my hair and clothing and what do you do to get em off your sheets/

[JINXtheMINX]

Hello darling.
FIRST take a deep breath - and let it go! I kno your facing an uphill battle & your scared. GOOD!
SECOND allow all that fear to inspire you - find pro-active outlet (reading research, crunching stats from clinical trials, painting... suffers need artist to sum up whats going on visually (or your media preference ex music) AND PUT ALL THAT FEAR INTO IT!!! Don't hold it in any longer - do worry about what you can't handle at this moment.
Cleaning is both comforting & distressing to me depending on my own level of anxiety. So as important as it is to clean it's just as import to find a method to release the toxic "mental" stuff too DON'T WORRY AT ALL! FIND THAT MORGELLONS THEMED RELEASE OUTLET & EMPOWER YOURSELF!!!

>>>> for me it's knowledge is power kind of thing. I can't tell you what yours will be but you can find it! You know your strengths, interests & passions IT"S TIME TO SUMMON ALL THAT'S WONDERFUL & GREAT ABOUT YOU - it's your best defense against "any who, what, where, how, or why"

keep letting each deep breath go... just let go & breathe

[marry]

I hear you on the clothes issues. Been there many times.

-light clothes seem to be less attractive to them, made that my wardrobe for a while, it helped
-ask jonsi about the miracle soap it is the only thing that made a difference long term I think they follow it out because it is a dark color?? Still my jeans are sometimes clean other time reinfect but my light clothes are fine now mostly...

-front load washers can be issues ( mold, standing water ), if you have a choice go top load

environment

I thought i had bed bugs for a long time

a spray formulated from a PCO in san francisco who writes a column works perfect for morgs

mix 40% alcohol, 40% water, 20% dish soap and as much Diatomaceous earth as you can in a chapin ( got mine at pest control online site, lowes carries them as well ) type pump sprayer ( spray bottles clog ). I sprayed the walls ceilings furniture floors. You can experiment but it just leaves a white film did not ruin anything. The dish soap keeps it from floating around the air so you do not breath it. Wear a mask to spray it. It stops them from moving around. I no longer was attacked from the walls and ceilings after I sprayed this.

Menthol crystals some use for laundry. it helped then stopped working but for the environment it works great to clean the air. A coffee warmer works to heat it better than a diffuser, more into the air. Mountainrose herbs lots of people buy them. Do not want to breath it. need to treat a room for 24 -48 hours best but do what you can, it helps in increments as well. See mr cs posts on this. Great for car if you have one.

Marry

now I have 3 posts!

[marry]

DE on your skin like powder works for a while until humidity from your body breaks through it so to go out to the store it is helpful.

marry