please help me, i don't think i'm going to last much longer.

[whrk]

please help me. i don't want to do this anymore and i'm seriously thinking of ending everything. i have something that looks like maggots coming out of my nose, i've lost my appetite and haven't actually properly eaten for days, i've lost nine pounds, i'm starting to my vision in my left eye a bit, and i feel like puking. i have a headache that feels like something is trying to bore into my brain and i swear i've felt something that has felt like worms crawling under my skin in my head. i have a stomachache that feels tingly and like something is crawling in there too. i'm scared to eat because everytime i do my stomach ties up in knots and i get pains under my bellybutton. i'm losing my coordination and memory and i'm getting shakes and bloody noses and cold/warm feelings in my head and stomach. this has been happening for a month now and no matter how much ovex i take, it just keep getting worse and worse. also, i called nhs direct, and they said to keep one of the maggot things and take it to the doctor. i did, i went to a&e, and she blew me off. i also begged for a scan of my head because i'm so worried about what's going on. i also woke up the other day with something literally feeling like it was "crawling", no joke, down my spine. i was sobbing when i woke up. i just want to lay down and die because i feel so helpless.

i also just found out i 'm pregnant. which means no scan for me. and, i've also just been told by my husband that he wants a divorce.

i keep going to doctors and no one is listening. i keep being told i need to go to a psychiatrist, or i'm given antibiotics for a sinus infection, or pills for constipation, or being told that i need to de-stress and that it's all in my head or that it's pregnancy related and that it "does weird things to you". none of this is related to any of those things and i don't care if it's my first time, i know what normal pregnancy signs are. i seriously wish it were but something related to one of those things because something is seriously wrong with me and it's not that i'm crazy, at all. i'm stressed out and depressed because i'm actually fearing for my life and my baby's life, but i'm definitely not crazy.

why is it so hard for doctors to think someone might have something like this seriously wrong with them? i told them i went to mexico a year and a half ago and that i started getting the white balls in my nose after that. but honestly, other animals have infections like this too. yes, i have morgellons as well, which doctors don't believe that i have either (that was an experience) but something literally feels like it's eating away at me and it's my worst fear coming true. this is supposed to be the happiest time of my life and i swear to God that i'm actually dying.

someone please help me because i literally don't think i'm going to last much longer.

[Keavy]

Look, I don't have morgs, but if you want to talk PM me....
I'll hang around a bit.

[fracty]

Hi Whrk,

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. I am trying to think of anything I/we can do to help you.

I can tell you I had most (but not all) of the things you mentioned, and they have subsided LOTS. In particular, the stuff moving up and down my spine - yes, it felt like worms - that was SOOO painful - actually indescribable pain. That cleared up when I started taking antibiotics. I only had one time the back pain came back again for about 4 days. I don't know if you can use antibiotics if you are pregnant tho.

I could certainly tell you everything that helped me. But I dont want to tell you things you've already tried, or make you feel worse. I do know that more than one of us have had symptoms improve using different methods.

I don't eat processed foods, have LOTS of raw, organic vegetables and some fruit. I eat lots of live probiotic types of things, fiber...

Well, I am being like a guy in that I want to "fix" you. (I'm female, not male.)

Please let me know what I can do to help. Like I said I would be happy to tell you what has worked for me, if you would like. And I know ohters here are symptom free and can also help you.....

I am sending you a hug and I will pray for you. I wish I could do more!

PS- I have never met w Dr Staninger, but you might want to do a phone conversation w her. I can tell you how to call her on the Internet for free or close to free (phone charges - her appointment is two hundred and something I think).

[jonsi]

Send us (me) a personal message and we can talk you through this.

Many of us have gone through what you are experiencing. It sounds like you are going through the worst of it, but it does get better. You need to get through this to help others get through this!

Love to you,
~jonsi

[-----------]

Hi Whrk,

Hang in there, sweetie... some of us have had similar symptoms and gotten better with time, you're in a rough patch. Use only natural things that won't hurt the baby to fight this with, like salt water in the nose - saline nose drops. Do a salt water flush or drink some salt/C, drink some vinegar daily... I don't think that will hurt? Anyone?

There are a few here from the UK, maybe some of them can give you a good doctor to see? Talk to us, we understand and will help you through...

[Enviro Girl]

Whrk - Part of this is depression. Parasites can cause depression.
Don't let IT beat you. Morgellon's has caused so many divorces. I'm so sorry for what you have gone through.
You have a baby to get through this for, that is already counting on you. Your baby needs you to be strong.
Be very careful with any treatment, but I saw on here that Carla has a list of doctors. I've just seen an ND treating down syndrome in a pregnant mom, we'll get through this.
There are still things that you can take/do. Please don't give up!
I'd say it's really important that you get in the hands of skilled care and begin a safe protocol for you and the baby NOW.

I don't know your faith - but Morgellon's tested mine so much and the pain and suffering I saw us going through made me fight for others. I'm better Whrk - I'm still fighting for us. I can't let this go, not while it's still going on.

- Please get w/Carla, find a goooood doc NOW
- See if there is also a support group (if not, you have one right here)

I don't know you, but I love you, God loves you - Please fight and let's get you and your baby safely through this!
If you need a laugh, I have some rude comments going, directed at the American CDC - I learned how to use peeing and vomit smilies there! (lace up the combat boots)
Your strength and your faith is being tested - Win this w/us!,

[kckc]

whrk, sweetie hang in there!, Don't let it beat you, I know how tempting giving up is. I had a remote consult with Dr. Overman's office, Its like 85$, and my children and I are doing so much better. I was just like you, please, if you feel like throwing in the towel, come here first, I know many here, including myself, will be there for you as best as we can, pm me or send me an e-mail if you would like my phone #. I love you honey, Don't give up!!!
Love and Prayers for you, kc

[ChatCat]

Hi Whrk,

We understand what you are going through and please know that you can either get much better or recover completely.

There are several here including myself who are much better and on their way to complete recovery.

I had morg in my brain and could feel the worm like motion up and down in my neck. I could feel it everywhere and it was a horrific nightmare.
Now I am starting to feel really good and almost completely symptom free.

I have spoken to several who recovered that had Dr. Staninger help them.
I am under her care now and doing great.

Others have benefitted from using Dr. Overman's protocol.

As you can see there is alot of HOPE and we will help you to find answers too.
This is a great place with many loving people who know what you are going through.

Please don't give up.

God loves us and he will help us to win this war.

Love ya! cc

[Enviro Girl]

CC!

Do you know someone where you are who got better w/Precision Herbs/Doc Overman, too?!!! (or you just mean me, KC & her kids and that ND and their patients/like 8 or so, thus far) If so, what state?! How many?!

We're trying not to get too excited, but 3 states I know of gives me HUGE hope! (plus we are like one end, middle and other end of the U.S. - that gives me huge hope that our Other Things go w/IT, no matter where we are, we have to see...)

I didn't want to get libeled more as the 'Bernie Madoff of Oregano' - but KC and I JUST saw something from Precision about down syndrome for a pregnant mom and I really had hope for whatever we may face, this and going forward, I thought about that when WHRK was sad, but I can't say much, it seems...

I heard Dr. Staninger is top o the line, too. Congrats on your healing!!!

I'm not trying to put one against another, we need them ALL and I LOVE anyone who went to bat for us, I know they face big hassles from The Powers That Be: but can WHRK get to Doc Staninger via the mail & online, too? Cuz that gave me hope for those in other countries, if they can't afford to travel re: Precision/Overman's!
Do they need an office visit or does she travel and do seminars in other places or does she have a UK counterpart you could send WHRK info on? Some ppl want 'in person', I think - let's give her 2 AWESOME options right now!!!

Here's how I got better, WHRK - this was through the mail, you can see my costs: Transgenic Recode + Anti-Promoter

CC - It's soooo exciting to see our OPTIONS/Success Stories growing: All these DOCS rockin' it out need to come together, on behalf of us and be the NEW AMA!!! In my book, they already ARE!

[Robin]

Hi Whrk,
How are you doing? it does get easier i can honestly say that .you are not the first or unfortunately last person to feel this way. i know i had the same feelings myself in the past.but think of our babes we are the only ones that can handle this for them!it will be better.i promise!
XO Robin