Having Panic attack right niw!!

[posey]

I hope putting this down will help me. I've heard it's suppose to help.

I have to get my mind off this quickly by watching a good show or something. I have valium and am greatful for it, even though it is a chemical drug.

I just feel so awful. Has anyone gotten rid of the film. plaque on their scalp in way other than Grapefruitseed Extract (GSE). I diluted it with distilled water but it still itches so bad. I know I may have to suffer some to get rid of this but this is hard to tolerate. My threshhold isn't that high.

I don't even know what to eat anymore.

I'm a mess.

I feel like Mrs. Grossbag

[Sadsack]

Posey -

I am so, so sorry - and can relate. At the moment I am not panicking, but I am horribly depressed. Not sure which is worse.

Are you alone? Is there anyone in your life who understands what you are going through (besides us?).

I don't have any suggestions for your scalp except ones I would make up. For some reason "Oxiclean" comes to mind, but I wonder if it is too intense to put on your skin. If you have some, mix a tiny bit with a little water and do a patch test. Better yet, baking soda and water - should be safe.

What a horrible thing to happen to anyone!

SS

[tcmgpt13]

That's a great idea Posey, to take your mind off what is bothering you by diverting your attention. That often helps. Finding something which makes you laugh is really good, if you can find something to watch in that direction. Glad that the Dinosaurs videos made you laugh the other day, but now I can't suggest you try watching that episode. LOL.

Unfortunately whatever these parasites are they do cause anxiety just in themselves (the toxic waste they deposit). At the beginning I used to have horrible attacks, but my TCM herbalist gave me herbs for that and it helped quite a bit. I think they were for the liver as the source of the problem. Anyway, if you are not allergic to ragweed, using chamomile tea can sooothe the nerves. I find it calms me if I use it before sleep. I steep it covered to add strength to the brew for about 15 minutes (covering preserves the oils). Traditional Medicinals makes a tea with chamomile, lavender and lemon balm. Very soothing to the nerves.

Have you looked under Morgellons Treatments section and read some of the posts under Scalp treatments--Member Suggestions? There might be something there which could help you.

Another thing, if toxins are building up in your system doing a colon cleanse might move some of the waste out of your body and you would feel perhaps less anxious. I have used the Dr. Natura system in the past, at my TCM friend's urging (after she had tried all her remedies she felt it could provide more support in a different direction). You may find this online. There are other detox systems on line and in health food stores as well. Treating both the inside and outside of the body is important. My own favorite herbal dewormer is Old Amish Dewormer. This company also sells a good kidney cleanse and a very strong oregano oil. I have posted about these before, but will put the website here again: The Original Old Amish DeWormer Parasite Cleanse: "Old Amish DeWormer", No Pills to Swallow Liquid Formula, Kidney Cleanse, No Tea to Brew Liquid Formula, Self-health products for Family Wellness. Lower Bowel Cleanse, Dewormers, Parasite Cleanse & Ki My friend was the person who told me about this site and I do feel their products are effective (though I will not say a cure, but then nothing so far has been a cure). Just did a preview and wow they surely have made a commercial for their website these days, LOL.

Just know that many of us have been there too, as anxious and frightened as you are now. Just remember you are bigger than the parasites. Somehow it is comforting to me to make them quite small and therefore less powerful in my own mind. Remaining as upbeat as you can helps I think and also helps eliminate them from your body. Fear only holds toxins in the body. Enjoy life as much as you can and worry as little as possible. I sincerely mean that too, although I know we all have moments of doubt. Try not to isolate yourself too much.

[kmar]

Posey,

I don't know your religious affliations, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

When things get going really bad for me, I always remember what my mother used to tell me and that was that God will only give you what you can handle (even if you don't think so at the time).

I often will think about one of my absolute worst "past" situations and see that I did indeed get thru it and please know this panic attack will too pass.

Everything we are forced to go thru does make us stronger even if we don't agree or understand at the time.

Healing Prayers sent your way,
Kmar



P.S. Here is an Angel to watch over you.

[pat]

Posey get a good amount of olive oil or coconut and add 10 drops of Lavender oil and 10 drops T Tree oil.Slather it on scalp and leave as long as possible pref overnight maybe some sort of covering on head to protect pillow etc would help.This is what I used years ago when I had lesions on head.Today I don't have any and haven't had for a long long time.I always use those oils in shampoo and recently started to use marc neumanns mouthwash diluted as a final rinse on hair.The strange thing is the grey hair i had on my temples is disappearing and my hair is going back to its natural colour..reddy/gold and the rest of the hair is looking a richer colour.
Mighty strong stuff that mouthwash marc.Get it out as a hair aid..it gets rid of grey naturally.LOL.
Hope you get some relief posey.If you have the film on skin at all the GOJO pumice orange gets rid of it with a good scrub.I mix it with boric acid too.

[Sadsack]

Pat -

Don't mean to derail this thread, but something you said made me think of something. My roommate's hair used to be just about ""Bill Clinton white." He has a milder form of Morgellons (denies it, in fact) - but his hair is getting darker all the time. Big patches of dark hair.

I know this is an unusual symptom, but it has happened to others as well.

Do you mind saying how old you are, when your hair started turning, and when it started turning back?

Thanks
SS

[carla]

Sad said

Don't mean to derail this thread, but something you said made me think of something. My roommate's hair used to be just about ""Bill Clinton white." He has a milder form of Morgellons (denies it, in fact) - but his hair is getting darker all the time. Big patches of dark hair.

I know this is an unusual symptom, but it has happened to others as well.

I 'm the opposite . I have dark brown hair but always have a thick grey one at the front .
When I pull it out it comes back a day later.
Is this just cause I'm getting old or a part of the wonderful world of a Morgie.
It is the thickness of five normal hairs.

Sorry you feel so bad Posey but I bet you feel a bit better just telling us about it .

[mmarsha]

Originally Posted by posey

I hope putting this down will help me. I've heard it's suppose to help.

I have to get my mind off this quickly by watching a good show or something. I have valium and am greatful for it, even though it is a chemical drug.

I just feel so awful. Has anyone gotten rid of the film. plaque on their scalp in way other than Grapefruitseed Extract (GSE). I diluted it with distilled water but it still itches so bad. I know I may have to suffer some to get rid of this but this is hard to tolerate. My threshhold isn't that high.

I don't even know what to eat anymore.

I'm a mess.

I feel like Mrs. Grossbag

Hi Posey, I know what you mean about feeling like Mrs.Grossbag, LOL, me too! You know I wanted to thank you for helping me with the link on the Ears thread. It really has helped my research to finding a way to cure myself or at the least to feel better. The parasitic wasp was positively Id'ed by entomologist from samples that i sent him. I think this insect has a lot to do with other insects and parasites that have invaded our body's. I am feeling somewhat better than a week ago. Film on ears is completley gone from using Benonite clay very thick on ears and neck and I also used the oral clay and passed lots of parasites. I wash my hair 3 times at a time with shampoo with a few things added to it like GSE and T-tree and then when I condition with cream rinse I add those same things to it and before rinsing off I use a metal fine tooth comb while still in shower and comb out my hair a couple times. When my infection was at it's worse my head and hair was full of this stuff what ever it is is not lice I sent samples then too and they came back as fiberous debris, yeah right. fiberous debris that bite. lol. anyway at first I used lots of lice shampoo's and combed and combed and combed. I figured out that after washing 3 times and combing was as effective as lice shampoo which was I am sure poisoning me due to the fact I used it every day. As for panic attacks, I have them too! I take xanex which helps a lot. Even if it is a drug, I don't care right now I need them when I am in panic mode. I wish you well posey, and wish I knew something else to say that may possibly help your condition. One thing I forgot to mention is white vinegar, you could try using half water and half vinegar as a final rinse that you don't wash out, but that is depending on if you have open sores on scalp as it may burn a little but for ne the burning a little is better than itch itch itch and those terrible crawling sensations. I am praying for you posey, hang in there, We Will Win This War one Day!!!
mmarsha

[Robin]

Hey all!
Posey why don't you try making a paste out of the DE and start using that with a shower cap while you sleep this will kill the stuff on your scalp. but do it nightly for awhile i bet this will help also buy a soft bristle scrub brush to use on your scalp in the shower try a sea sponge or loofa also.i guarantee you once you get this off your scalp you will notice how the rest will follow but you have to do it!
Goog Luck and kick its ***!
Love R obin

[pat]

Sadsack my hair started turning grey just on the temple area about 3 years ago.i have noticed it turning back to colour in the last 6 weeks.I don't colour my hair at all and i have had those thick grey hairs carla speaks of.It's not age carla its the morgs.
The only thing I have been doing in the last 2 months is taking anti fungal stuff.I must say I find it bizarre,you don't expect that to happen..not that i'm complaining lol.I'm 57 BTW.