tough decisions

[Kritters]

I was very close tonite to not knowing what to do next. Depression can be devastating, yes?

I decided to not become one of those sad people I so wish I could protect because they need me to help protect them.

I climb from the depths of dispair to muster strength to not let this get us down.

just thought about what I wrote.... how sappy! hey call me freaking Patrick Henry LOL.....

But...we have not been brought together for no reason...

later...
Kritts

[faithinacure]

Dearest Kritts:
I admit I have been battling a horrible depression, too. Every time, I think I'm getting better, I turn a corner, my symptoms return. I'm in the beginning of the cycle again. The early signs are appearing again. I know I'm to blame because I don't treat myself consistently, cause I'm trying to live my life outside of this disease. I will personally try to be more consistent in treating this disease.

That is so true and I agree with you. We are together for a reason. I believe we are all connected in a very essential way. It's a roller coaster ride living in this age. But, every day is another opportunity to change the way we process and live. I love you, Kritts, and so appreciate you here on this site!!! I am not a consistent presence here, as you and others. I am grateful for the healing and help I have received here!!
I lover ya,
Faithxoxoxoxoxo

[Kritters]

Ahhhhh, my very special friend Faithster.... Who sent you here, huh??? lol

I know who did.

So, you're either Jewish or Catholic....because you assume the guilt yourself

I wish there were a more subtle laughing smiley LOL....

I so love you also Faith. It's a tough deal with this challenge.

I started to listen to Eckhart Tolle today and I have to say...he's a cool dude. I find much comfort in him and what he has to say.

It might be a good thing to offer his thoughts to this forum.

Lover ya,
Kritts

[jonsi]

Hi Kritts & Faith,


"But...we have not been brought together for no reason..."

I feel blessed to have met so many wonderful people here! You all bring me up when I'm feeling depressed. When I want to vent and get mad, you all forgive. When I need to share, you all share back.

I can relate to what kritters is talking about in not always being able to help others. Most of the time we need to work this "morgellons" out and figure it out on our own. Give it some time. There are certainly stages and cycles we go through with this.

In the white light,
~jonsi

(ps. K, I'm still working on that with cc. This past week was hectic!)

[Kritters]

thanks sweetiepie....good awesome buddie.....fabulous fiddler chick.....

I know you're working on it.

xoxoxo
lover ya

[jonsi]

Sweetiepie back to you!

Do you think you're depressed because of the "M"?

I cry when I watch some commercials! I always have, especially the Christmas and Olympic stuff. Now they have commercials for homeless dog and cat shelters. No way Jose, I'm not going into one of those places. I'd bring home everyone of those animals and be miserable the rest of my life trying to take care of them and not me.

I think there is a big difference between depression and anxiety attacks/suicidal thoughts. When I was really sick with "M" I suffered the anxiety and suicidal tendency every day. God, it was tough. I used to get in the shower and scream and imagine the water washing my pain away.

Everyone who is going through this, hang in there. It will get better. You can try to pm any of us (realize we aren't always logged in and it will take us time to respond) and we will talk you through it.

In the white light,
~jonsi

[Kritters]

Originally Posted by jonsi

Sweetiepie back to you!

Do you think you're depressed because of the "M"?

I cry when I watch some commercials! I always have, especially the Christmas and Olympic stuff. Now they have commercials for homeless dog and cat shelters. No way Jose, I'm not going into one of those places. I'd bring home everyone of those animals and be miserable the rest of my life trying to take care of them and not me.

I think there is a big difference between depression and anxiety attacks/suicidal thoughts. When I was really sick with "M" I suffered the anxiety and suicidal tendency every day. God, it was tough. I used to get in the shower and scream and imagine the water washing my pain away.

Everyone who is going through this, hang in there. It will get better. You can try to pm any of us (realize we aren't always logged in and it will take us time to respond) and we will talk you through it.

In the white light,
~jonsi

Jonester...I'm so depressed because of a few culminative things. One is major and it's the glob that glopped onto my arm which is no question from whatever clouds were created overhead. I mean...ugly, girlfriend.

Unfortunately, my scope camera sucks...whiche sent me into an even deeper depression.

I dunno... I just feel like I'm making no difference at all.

xoxoxo

[jonsi]

Kritts, FYI, You do make a big difference. Here and for your family too.

[Katinka]

Hello Kritts, Faith, Jonsi!

seems we all are having a bad time, lately? Such disputes like we had here..well..let me say...drag everyone down?...a needless, ugly thing to do in our situation trying to cope with this terrible illness every day.

All of us are suffering and trying very hard to get better or atleast get a little relief..besides that helping, caring and loving our family? we need to take care of every day...trying to stay strong and not showing our grief although we would need to cry out loud??

I personally think many here are the most wonderful people I have ever been able to meet in my entire life...and I have never received so much support and so much love directed to me...and I wish to thank you.

You are very precious people...and every each one of you are my heroes!

Some just seem to not understand that we NEED to stick together..if we don't.... then how can we expect support or help from 'strangers'?

We NEED to show that we are a strong community...family..a supportive self help group!!
That is our TENOR!!

Showing 'fights' here in public and discrediting others only leaves a 'wedge to chop into' by people who are calling us DOP anyway...

WE shouldn't let that happen....noone here has deserved to be called 'crazy'..what a shame!! and it hurt me to the bottom of my heart that my dearest, beloved friend was offended so badly...this I will never forgive nor forget..sorry, to say..I just can't....INJUSTICE is a trait I cannot tolerate at all...and I feel very sorry we all here had to be confronted with it...I'm sad, very sad that this happend...

Evil spirits...that's all I can say.. oh, well....we knew this would happen sooner or later...didn't we?

sending all of my love and best wishes to ya all! and thanks for letting me pour out my heart...my dear friends!

WE ARE FAMILY!!

Katinka

[carla]

Beat depression by eating Sunflower Seeds by the bucketful and get plenty of sunlight.