I Hate Christmas

[carla]

Thats it ! I hate Christmas . I dont feel festive at all. I can't even be bothered decorating the tree.
I wish I could fast forward to January .

Keeping the Children warm and well fed is hard enough without having to worry about buying presents that will break as soon as the warranty expires.

[sojii]

It's not fun any more, for sure. I used to be a regular Cathy Clause, I was such a Christmas freak. I started listening to Christmas music with the first cold snap in October and didn't stop until the Twelfth Day of Christmas. We celebrated St. Nicholas Day, the three days before Christmas in honor of the Three Wise Guys and all 12 days of Christmas in honor of the Epiphany. I would have died rather than do without a tree and decorations in every room; I couldn't imagine such a thing. But then as a parent and friends died, jobs were lost and Morgellon's struck, everything changed. My two remaining family members couldn't care less; they're in their own little worlds and there's no place for anyone else. I haven't seen my father in 24 years. I'll be alone on Christmas this year. Christmas is very hard now; there's no arguing that point. But I don't hate Christmas; it's the promise of the one Hope I have left.

[janedoe]

i hate christmas too. nobody to buy gifts for, nobody to care about. fu(k it..i havent put up a tree in years.not gonna this year either..

[Steve Frey]

Xmas x unemployed x morgellons / will to live = stress

Think I'll look into Judaism then I could just snub Christmas, hey I might actually become successful too.

[jonsi]

Well, I love seeing the Christmas lights on the neighbors houses. We are going to get our tree this weekend and I did my shopping yesterday. My list is very small... Expectations are hard to meet.

I think that the expectations we put on ourselves (or the stress from family & friends) is what makes Christmas such a difficult time. Five, four, three years ago I totally didn't do any Christmas celebrating except for with my daughter & parents. My parents would take my young daughter to Albuquerque on X-mas day to celebrate & I would stay alone at home. I wasn't up to it. My family finally understood that I was sick.

So this year I'm trying to get ready... wish I was a kid again and could let the grown-ups do all of the work.

Peace & love to all of you,
In the white light,
~jonsi

[Steve Frey]

Anyone know if there was something going on in the universe last week that barded us with negative energy or something. I got blindsided on Tuesday with the lose of my job, then Friday after mega stressing for three days my foot began to swell and it hasn't stopped since, it's grossly large and all them embedded deposits or fibers or whatever they are now hurting like hell because the body part they're living in is getting larger but they're not so I can feel all this tightness and pulling.

Then when I tried to go to the drug store earlier today to get some more Ibuprofen I had a flat tire and I have no spare so I had to wait for hours for one of my True friends to bring me a can of fix-a-flat, but one can wasn't enough so I had to use a bicycle pump to get it to a point that I could drive on it, and that about killed me let me tell you. Then I drove to the nearest gas station and by the time I got there the tire was totally flat AGAIN so I had to buy another can of fix-a-flat which seemed to do the job.

By then the pain in my foot was debilitating and I didn't think I could make the trip into and out of the drug store so I came home empty handed. And now here I sit with my flintstone foot dreaming of the day that we can kick this mo**er fu**ing parasites arse.

[jonsi]

Wow Steve, sorry. Sounds like you are being barded! I know that there is a meteor shower tonight...

Hope your foot feels better. Tires are expensive, I just bought a new set a few months ago. I hope you will get a new job real soon that pays triple.

If I was Santa Claus I would deliver all three to your house on Christmas Eve.

Have hope...

itwl,
~jonsi

[Baraka Obam]

I do not like the commercialism and the forced buying of presents, just want to say, guess what I got you for Christmas, LOL, guess again!

Christmas is what you make it, I have found myself going back in time when I was smallER, LOL and my parents were alive and remember the great holiday that Christmas was.

It was magic

I wish all of you could remember the good days, give thanks for what you do have, that alone helps just a tiny bit, to remember how good we have it.

you can laugh or you can cry its your choice.

[fritolay66]

Hey Jonsi,

I can be the elf helper and help to deliver....

Steve, I am really sorry to hear about all that. Many good wishes coming your way.

Sojii, Cathy Clause?!! OMGosh, thats perfect. I was to at one time. I threw away our tree and never replaced it.

Carla, perhaps the spirit will kick in.

My son informed the other day quite empatically that he hates Christmas. I know its not really true, but I understand why he thinks that, especially after what this disease has done to our lives. I still try to look forward to maybe next year.

Frito

[jonsi]

Baraka said: guess what I got you for Christmas, LOL, guess again! Good enough for me cuz BO always keeps me guessing and (seriously) he makes me laugh so hard sometimes!

One thing I am thankful for is the friends I have made by sharing our experiences with "Morgellons" Disease. You all are a blessing to me.

Like frito said, let us look forward.

In the white light,
~jonsi