Have or have nots

[janedoe]

oh, i hate the ones you cant reach! like midle of the back, but if i cant reach it, it kinda proves im not picking at it..i try so hard not to touch but its really hard, guys are lucky, they dont have to wrestle a bra that pulls your bandaids off.. my dad cant belive all the bandaids i go thru, but its that or hide and stay away from people.
see, i knew he was trying to help, but he doesnt understand. one day he had guests over, my dad didnt give me a heads up anybody was coming over ( its not like he hsa to, but if the persons gonna wanna talk to me, id like to be dressed..lol) so i hid in my room. i get super self concios when im really broke out, so when this guy wanted to ask about the morgellons, i guess hes a retired doctor that thinks he has it as well, but i didnt know that so im trying to hide from him, afraid he he just wants to see the 'freakshow' real quick,after they all left, then my dad told me he wanted to know more about it..
but you got to figure, when i stopped going to lodge everythurday, people were asking about me. my dad does whats called 'sick&distressed' and what he does is he visits members that are sick, then my dad gets up and tells the lodge every week how they are doing..its a great thing, a lot of members are widowers that cant call their buddys at the lodge if they get sick, so my dad reports on everyone and gets them anything the need.. ok.. now, having said that, when he put me on the sick and distressed list,he 'mispronounced' my biopsy result that basicly said 'paraporiasis' and says ' parasites'.. yeah, he tells the whole lodge that i have parasites.im like , thanks dad, dont help me anymore!!! i still aint lived that one down, it didnt matter that it was corrected the following week, the damge was done.my dad doesnt see when people look at me different, or no longer 'need me' to help serve..
my sister comes to the house few weeks ago, basicly attacks me in the kitchen with ' how do you know you go tsick here?' whats morgellons i aint herd of that' ' barking qustions at me as if i picked this super cool disease to fake for sympathy, yeah right!! aint nobody got sympathy for you with open sores, they run the other way!! ..fast forwrd, she tells me a few weeks later that she always had problems breathing in the house...im like ' then what the hell was that last week then?'
so, yeah, maybe im anticipating that look, but i do always hope ill be wrong and somebody at the grocery store WONT grab their kid and run when they see me.
my dads a deacon at the church as well as S&D at lodge.. you'd think of all people on the earth, THIS man would have sympathy..NOPE.. not for me..but i dont expect anybody to go out of their way for me, to give that hug if they see me upset..my dad thinks that if he downplays it, then i wont try to 'work the sympathy card'..is he kidding? i dont want sympathy, in fact, id rather not have anybody even know i have this!!! i do everythng in my power to keep being strong and not let anybody know when ive been throwing up all night, or cant eat because my damn teeth keep breaking off...im not at all used to 'peace love and caring, we love you'. because ive only seen that BS in writing. between people that are lying about their own age...

[tcmgpt13]

Here's a lotion applicator for the back from the Vermont Country Store:

Lotion Applicator available at The Vermont Country Store

Originally Posted by cynical

Hi Bustercat,

When I had a situation on my back in the very beginning of this it itched almost the worst. I used an all over body msm lotion that worked the best that I purchased at my local Henry's health food market unfortunately they stopped carrying it. At the time though it was a lifesaver. It was MSM kiwi scented, I can try to figure out the name if you are interested. I know about a year ago I found it online but did not end ordering it. I actually have one on my back for the first time in a long time and you are right it is very hard to treat something you can't reach or see. I scratched the area not thinking about it and I could feel the blood leaking on to my shirt. Sure enough took my shirt off and there was a blond stain. I find myself trying to reach different parts of my back from every conceivable direction. You can get back scrubbers but has anyone ever heard of back lotion applying tool? Sometimes no one is around to help when you need it.

Interesting about the vein thing I have two in a row right over a vein on my face not huge but not going away either. My main areas remaining are scalp, face and neck. I found keeping the rest lightly covered with clothing has helped me. It's hard to always keep the head covered in Southern California your head is where your body releases heat.

Pm if you want me to try to figure out the name of the lotion. Did not leave a greasy feeling either.

Cyn

[cynical]

Ultra Aesthetics MSM Body Lotion Kiwi Scent 8 fl. oz. (227ml) - Nourishingfoods.com - Discount Vitamins & Nutritional Supplements

I found the lotion just by entering a few key words into google. This one is not drying like another msm lotion I tried. I'm kind of picky about lotions can't stand them greasy, can't stand them sticky, and can't stand them being too drying.

Great find TCM on the applicator