Today is a Bad Day

[carla]

When I follow all the rules.Take supplements,avoid gm,go to bed early and keep my house clean I feel ok and can live a bit.
But I find it impossible to keep to this for more than a couple of weeks .
One set back and I m back to square one . I forget everything and stay up late,get really depressed and do nothing for days . I end up getting take aways instead of cooking and everything ****s up .
I won't open mail or answer the phone.I've ran out of everything but going shopping is out of the question.
Is this just me or is it Morgellons fighting back.
I'm so fed up with this right now .
carla
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[Morgan]

Originally Posted by carla

When I follow all the rules.Take supplements,avoid gm,go to bed early and keep my house clean I feel ok and can live a bit.
But I find it impossible to keep to this for more than a couple of weeks .
One set back and I m back to square one . I forget everything and stay up late,get really depressed and do nothing for days . I end up getting take aways instead of cooking and everything ****s up .
I won't open mail or answer the phone.I've ran out of everything but going shopping is out of the question.
Is this just me or is it Morgellons fighting back.
I'm so fed up with this right now .
carla
xx

It is this disease my dear. It has knocked the stuffing out of me just as you say the last week or so. I see the cleanliness of my house deteriorating and cannot keep up with everyday chores. If anything EXTRA comes up in life which causes more effort I feel as if I'm overwhelmed. BUT, then something surprising happens. I get caught up on sleep. I wake up one morning feeling better and I start fighting my way back to normalcy.
You will feel better and when that day comes around again...and it WILL...you will appreciate it all the more. Hang in there.
I've had a TERRIBLE past week. Felt terribly overwhelmed and beat to the ground by responsibility and itching and things coming out of me that I have not seen since the beginning three years ago. But today I woke up feeling oddly good. I noticed the trees turning their fall colors and had some clarity
of thought that I have not have the pleasure of having for a long time.

Like the tides of the ocean this will ebb and flow. I know it sounds corny but better days are ahead for you.

Morgan

[carla]

Thanks Morgan , You can describe things much better than me .
I know it will get better but it always seems to happen when I have something important to do .
carla
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[Brenda]

....i'm right there with ya, Carla. i try so hard to be optomistic, strong, positive but my God, i wish this story would be finished & this life be over.......i am so tired of this place.

bjkth956 (brenda)

[Jo]

We are all in the same boat, although it often feels more like a ship wreck

I reckon our feelings, motivation etc are affected by the organism's life cycle...through its reproduction spurts in line with the lunar cycle?? Also kicking out enzymes to dull us down on a regular basis.

The moons been waxing for a number of days, full moon tomorrow and then will wane for a few days. This is morg time...time to step up treatment to attack it

WE WILL PREVAIL CARLS!! keep doing the do everybody



Jo xxx

[Kritters]

Yup, I agree....the parasites are doing their thang to keep us listless and stoopid (at least in my case ) Hang in Carls and Jo and everyone. I'm stepping up my B's these days. It does seem to help with the panic attacks. A little depression tries to slip in but I shoo it away.
xoxo
Kritts

[Sadsack]

Carla,
Iv'e had a rough week, too...it actually never is really that good, but sometimes it's worse. I get so afraid and withdrawn I almost can't handle the smallest things. I used to be one of the busiest, most productive people you could imagine. Never stopped. Now I can't start.
Tonight, though, after watching Mystery ER, I somehow felt strangely better - calmer, validated in a way. After you know what you have, and then know how horrible it is and what it has done to your life, it becomes nearly impossible to feel human, to be unafraid.
I'm really OK tonight. I hope it's still there tomorrow.
We are all with you, Carla.
SS

[faithinacure]

Carla:
I so know all of what your going thru. I'm having symptoms I had in the beginning also. Just when you get cozy thinking you have a break, it comes back and all the undone responsibilities pile up and make it even harder to catch up. So tired now and must sleep, but I still believe this will all make sense someday and we will have more and more symtom-free days. Jo, Kritts and all of you always make me see the light in the distance, that hope.
Love, Faith xoxoxox

[Kritters]

LOVE YOU Faith, Carls, Jo, everyone......we are gonna get through this really well.
xoxo

[carla]

Wow I can consider myself lucky today. I got you lot to support me.
This isn't fatique .I am wide awake but just can't move much.
I can still find the energy to shout at people so my family think I 've become lazy .
Things that used to irritate me a bit now make me see red.
Loud music,my ex ,anyone whistling and the TV get on my nerves so much I end up screaming at everyone.
love you all
carla
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