dont bother

[Natalie]

Im probably gonna get kicked off this site. Im a loser, so what. Im pee'd off. this is not against anyone. Especially NOBODY in particualr. My God please, Im not an offender!

I cleaned up my personal messages and saw the message that I have not responded to this site. period. I understand. I want to be a part of. A part of!! Not what you want me to be. I am a human with feelings and family and friends and THIS!

You want a response? Im not gonna be happy. Im not. Im tired of faking Im ok.

Do you people understand that this STUFF is everywhere? It is here. I go on the bus and I am being attacked by something. Notice I said something. Cause I dont know. Does anyone care? Yeah, you guys do, but does the freakin elite? The government. The frekin Board of Health? No. Noone does.

I am faking life. Im a good actress and its not fun.

I dont know about anyone else because know one takes the freakin time to write. Come on people. Wake the **** up. I dont care if you think its this or that!!!

Wake up!!!! Your opinion doesnt matter. We are ill.
Let your ego go.

OK. I get up and have to wipe my ears and nose of something. I take a shower and leave the biulding, only to get itchy because whatever i got ITS IN THE HALLWAY TOO!
Am I making believe? No, its here. Wake the #### up.

Im in a dream world of make beleive. Make beleive itss not happening.
Whatever. Its friggin real. Everyones got it here in my town. I

Im sitting here at my PC just like a psychic told me 10 years ago. I thought He was nuts. I didnt even use a microwave. He said I was allergic to drugs, food, then people. How stupid is that? I wish it wasnt true. I cant even leave my hallway where other people walk without feeling the effects. This is not an old thing for me. Im sick of it. I lie to to get what I need. I know what the no wall cell bacteria does to the intestines. I have past friends and new friends end up in the hospital. My friend with Morgellons father was in the hospital for 3 days, they chalk it up to old age. WE know that bleeding from the rectum is starnge, we know that throwing up and itching is strange. We know that every person in this household is sick and doesnt know what to do is strange. #### them. Wake up. Look at this bacteria that is caused by a parasite. NO WALLS.

Our plants are thriving. The palm trees in FLA are dying. My friends father is gonna die soon. She has Morgellons worse than anyone Ive ever listened too, or saw. She has no kids. She has a mother who is a ####. Her and I met on the phone. I love her. NOT because of anything except she is of GOD, she is human, she is us she is a friend.

Wake up . We are not alone. We need each other so badly.

LIfe is short. Love is real. IM gonna mouth off as much as I can, with love

[Kritters]

Natalie,
I tried sending you a pm but you have exceeded your storage and cannot accept any.
I hope you are okay. No egos involved here, we're all trying to make sense of this so we can get help. I know it's tough. It is for all of us. We do care.
Kritts
xoxo

[Natalie]

I know you do. I know that evryone does in there own way. And dont think I havent gone ove every word I wrote, cause Im screwing up big time. I wasnt looking or caring for a reply. WE are ill, thats a given. If noone or anyone cares that I send love .. its there business. Yes I care about myself. I love my children more than the blue sky. Isnt that enough?? My heart is beating just thinkng about my LOVE.

HUH. what is love if that is what I said. We are co creators with HIM/HER. I gave birth to love. Obviously God is love and we are the recipients.

WE are going through trials of lessons. Im worn down. I wont kill myself. I wont harm anyone. I still send love, all day, eeevry night.

I guess I am mad that people arent aware. My answer for everything is LOVE. how does that help?
If we love in the first place, then we are relaxed enough to put out a good and viable vibration. See? I feel better just reverberating these words.

You all can just sleep and ask for help. Its thee only way to get help nowadays.
Sleep and peace is what I /we need. I dont have an answer. You all asked me to reply to Morgellons. Its here, its queer( stupid and unusual) and it is dumb.


I keep going back to what I feel and see, I live in a town in Mass. thats full of illness. You all want me to be positive. I am. But I have to report that theres alot of weird stuff going on. Period.
No. Im not going to shut up. The Board off Health couldnt shut me and you wont either.
The moon is in Scorpio tonight, I like it, always did. Morgellons. Big huge blanket statement for alot of problems.... that the government is hiding. RASBERRIES!!!!!


LOve is the answer. Just tell the truth. My goodness, why wouldnt we?

[jonsi]

Hello Natalie,
We got your wonderful package today...i tried to call you and am calling you now as I post. So answer the damned phone!!!!

OMG girlfriend, I'm gonna call you all night long until you answer the damn phone.

If there is a message to be learned by those of you that aren't sick, this is real and we try to stay strong and we are smart and loving people. and we are alone except for they few that realized that they really are sick and don't put on the blinders and think that this will just "go away". we reach out to each other via our computers because this is the only place that we find others who truly understand and are going through what we are going through. I want to say f u c k you very much to morgellonswatch and those who say that we are insane.. we are not and I swear if anything happens to my dear friend Natalie I will march in washington to bring awareness. And if Natalie is safe and sound asleep, then maybe even more of us will gather in washington to state our truths and reasons for being here to help others so that they won't have to go through the living hell we have gone through.

We have been through enough and we are sick of the bull sh(i)t. Everybody better wake up NOW.

how can I say "in the white light", ???? I am worried, this is hard.

~Ronda, "jonsi"

[Natalie]

Rhonda, OMG you know Im ok. I made a darn burger and ate white bread.

To the folks who need a wake up call, people need you!!!!!


I need you, you need me. Or maybe you dont think so. Its ok, cause Im praying for you too.


Shoot Jonsi. Ya think if I was gonna go Id be here? Id be floating in the ocean like I want to be!

Sorry you have to respond. Dont. Noone. Just tell the truth to another soul. Everyone tell the truth!
This thread is done

[jonsi]

must have been a big burger! Love ya Natalie,
~jonsi

[tcmgpt13]

Hi Natalie,

I hope you are feeling better this morning. This disease can get us down and so frustrated some days (every day). No one to talk with who believes us is a big issue, so thank goodness for the site where we may vent.

tcm xxx

[carla]

Natalie ,
I can relate to every word you said in that rant.
It's everywhere,it effects everyone I love and care about but I have to pretend everything is normal to keep my family together.
One day the world will wake up to Morgellons.
carla xxx

[Natalie]

Im sorry for swearing. I do feel better today. I can see clearly that I just want my own way, to get better physically. I havent been grateful at all. Ive sunken back into the poor me syndrome wich isnt helping me or anyone. I feel like a trapped rat sometimes. So scared and anxious, I just want to scream.

Guess I did last night. Thankyou for putting up with me. I dont have much human contact becuase I am so allergic to everyone. My family, my kids, they mean everything to me and I cant even be in there car, there house or evn go to family functions.
Oh here I go with the poor me again.Sorry.

You all know the story, you are living it too.

Thankyou for caring about me. Thats all I can say. Thankyou.

[Robin]

hey Nat!
hi how are you! did you get my messages? i know some of carlas have gotten lost in the past. did you start school? it seems like we all go thru the same strange side effects from this crap! i know i've been really aggravated lately too! we celebrated my sons 7yr b-day 2 days ago and i couldn't even invite the kids because all that was running thru my mind was (NO i don't want them getting this from coming to my house and of course it was pouring out all day!) but thank god my son invited his friends from the neighborhood or nobody would have come! he did have fun. also my 20yr old son brought home a stray dog someone left at his work now i have someone else to freak out about getting this i can relate wwe all can relate pm me when you can K
we will get thru this!
love robin