the weird weird world of parasites, and other stuff.

[ladycolorado]

http://www.olympusmicro.com/micd/gal...que/index.html here is something interesting too, about fish pathogens: http://www.defra.gov.uk/science/Area...ails.asp30.htm . (LC).

[aussiedave]

THAT PAGE DIDNT WORK FOR ME.

ITS OCCURED TO ME THAT THE NUMBERS OF ITCHYSHOW SUFFERERS IS HARD TO GAUGE, NOT JUST BECAUSE OF THE ONES HIDING QUIETLY OR ACCEPTING THE DRS DIAGNOSIS BUT THE SUICIDES
As unpleasant a subject as it is.I wonder how many people have written suicide notes describing the itchy show that were regarded as the workings of a psychotic mind and disregarded.
Its not just the physical dramas or the pride factor that would drive many to suicide but it could be the parasite itself.
In the animal world from insects up to mammals there is the phenomonon of suicide caused by parasites. e.g
nationalgeographic.com/news/2005/09/0901_050901_wormparasite.html

And even research that parasites will commit suicide themselves if exposed to a certain chemical trigger, which would be handy to have

and this is in poor taste but reminds me of my dreams
http://64.233.183.104/search?q=cache...lnk&cd=5&gl=uk

[al]

suicide is not an option

[aussiedave]

damn al i wish i could make the quote thing work
but one doesnt have to wonder why i brought it up
one only need read my explanation



Suicidal thoughts are just another symptom, not pleasant or polite but nothing about this filthy show is.
im not untouched by the results either by the way
If i had a competent Dr he would say
"now dave suicidal thoughts are a symptom created by the parasite. Be aware and put them in context"
i dont want to end up like the silly grasshopper

[ladycolorado]

This is WHY I post alot and bug the crap out of people in here all the time Dave, to make sure they are okay. Sometimes people have big problems and I have to think about them for a time, and it is entirely frustrating the answers do not always come as fast as I would like. The only joy I get is when I CAN find something which helps them. Sometimes they share with me something might help someone else or me too, which is great. I have had cases of those so destitue that all I can do is talk to them or try to give encouragement to keep them going, or make them laugh. If that fails, a prayer. Actually I think and pray for many in here, 24/7 in the back of my mind as I research, play games online, whatever I do. This disease is truly an injustice I know. To do anything else however, I could not call myself human anymore, I do this to remain human. Like I have no choice. There is only the one choice for me. It is the only choice for me. Boy, I am really NOT explaining myself well. I see beautiful people in here, creative people, kind people in here. Even if they do not like me, I do not care. I apprecite how they contribute and share. For all that I have posted, I would be nothing without the others in here. NOTHING. I try to keep my mind as busy as I can to not let despair rule me. Alot of the time I care for myself while on the computer. I clean and treat a lesion, or take my pills, or do one of the thousand things I every day to treat what is wrong. It is always something new. If I am depressed, I crank some music or watch something funny. If I like it I share it. Play a game, or research. Sometimes I make phone calls to Germany just because I am bored and want to know something. Or, if I see a Lyme or Morgellons website and there is a contact email I write them to see what they are about. Know them as people. If I find a helpful website with products, it is not unusual for me too call them to find out more about what theya re selling. If I need a stretch, I go for a walk. I give support calls. What was funny was one person wrote back asked if I charged . As much as we get ripped off, I cannot do that we spend too much money as it is. Kind folks have sent me things at times. I wish I could do that more. I want so badly to work part time, not quite there yet. I have a plan though. There will be a way I can do it soon. If I could do that, then could pay for some of my care, and try to help the sickest in here a tiny bit maybe. I would like to start a charity, but not computer savvy enough to do it on my own. I wish somebody could help me. There is a website could do it at no cost. I have posted on it before. I am at a loss at how I feel about those struggling. It is my struggle as well they suffer with. (LC)

[aussiedave]

well lady dont ask me , i stillhavent figured out the link i want to put in



Anyone who has the itchyshow for any period of time would empathise with my life going down the loo and having nothing better to do than go on the internet

I gather you're thick skinned too, i dare say the thin skinned threw in the towel long before they got here

[ladycolorado]

Yes Aussie I AM thick skinned. So thick skinned I sent my now 11 year old daughter out of the environment for amost a year while I patched up myself as best as I could, to keep her from being like me. I touched no one for 3 months was hell. For months I slept on a boxspring covered in plastic, every hole greased and praying for the stinging to stop. Slept whole nights in treatment baths. 13 months my husband was away, he had to go where to money was in his field. Healed countless lesions. Watched a catheter just decide to fall out a weeK later after a hyper puppy I had pulled it a little loose while hooked up to an IV bag. It was laying on my chest was like "Oh my God I am Alive" . It went into a vein near my heart. before that trying to push it back in, freaking out (turned out not supposed to do that how the hell was I supposed to know? ). Come out daily a little more. Turns out the things are well designed. Got possibly mugged during a memory blackout and endured a fall. My driver's licence, purse and 100 dollars gone. Somehow I made it home. I still do not know what happened. The next day awoke with huge bump on head, And wound on right palm turned into a gaping lesion hole. Poor family and spouse hearing me cry and shriek in pain during those dark times. Went out in 3 freezing blizzards one half blind and falling down, I was alone here. One time a burn just decided to envelop my chest, and I almost went into shock and My husband had to stay a week over on visit last New Year's because I was so sick. 5 days later, my skin still looked like red patent leather with cracks in it (and this was an improvement). Shrieks coming from the treatment baths, my husband not knowing what to do. My collie died from this, the pink clearish stuff of lesions filling her belly and her hair filled with blue fibers. Alphie looked like Lassie. She went home, I had to have her put down. For a month though heard the click clack of collie toenails by my bed at night, thought was the surviving collie Howie but he was not THERE. By the bed she used to sleep (his place was by the front door they used to split up guard duty at night). Was 11 months behind on the home. Pay as I go with the doc no insurance. Recently a worm family in my back, I am so grateful it is gone but loads of pain it was to kill what was stinging my spinal cord. This is about one percent what I have been through. I am saying this nicely, but yes, you are DAMN right I have thick skin, (LC).

[al]

Dave, the floors all yours.

[carla]

OMFG I ve just looked at that worm in the face video Aussie .Anyone know what they used on his skin to get that reaction? I want some .
carla

[aussiedave]