Deperately Seeking Help!!!!!!!

[Tanya]

This is who and what I've become and only exist - I do not live - I would ????? but don't know if I could really do it..... My children are all I think of and know that the mother that they had and deserved has disappeared for the past two years and they deserve better....they deserve to have her back.......But all she can do is right now is exist, hope and wait and dream of the day they may get her back..... but she needs help and so far there has been no one to help bring back the mother those lovely children so desperately, so silently need and want back.

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Does any one know of any doctors in and around Modesto, CA that I can go to for some type of treatment. I have already been put through hell and them some by a local dermatologist along with his UCSF buddy. I cry every day. Never leave my house. And think about the end of me everyday.

I can't live like this anymore and i have a 17 yr old son going to uc Irvine next year and a 23 year old daughter in grand school. but i am truly alone. so one really understands or cares to.i too live in California. i will travel anywhere for help. any luck with the doctors mentioned? I'm scared of getting scammed.

I'm also so tired of living this way and want to go to sleep until they figure it all out and make it go away which seems to be never. i cry everyday and live in isolation. i am missing out on so much of the life i have - death - I'm a living dead so why not just be.......

i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me . I'm in the midst of losing it. i feel sick and so creeped out. i hate myself so much and wonder and ask what terrible thing did i do in life to be punished like this. i believe in god even tho my family goes to church - i quit - how can there be a god when all i experience everyday is this loneliness, isolation and hell


i am freaking out again - the worms poking and coming out of my face are toooo much to handle. its happening again and of course I'm alone as always even when there here. i losing it. its too much. someone please help me


I thought it was just me. I have had and still may have the glass like shards in my hand, one on my face that i thought was just a small bump but opened up wide to a nickel size spread of the glass like substance - right on my cheek - bright as day and hard - which then eventually decided to sprout a (I'm getting sick thinking of it) worm, which I totally freaked, and while having a nervous break down extracted it and then right after the group on my neck and lower cheek. If the lesion was open they would pop out for a quick view (a least the two I thought and tried to tell someone I had).

Low and behold in the same area, the day, about the same time one tried to pop out through unbroken skin and as I looked in the mirror and saw this large lump protruding on my face. i had no idea how worse it was going to get and got.....when i saw this, of course i knew what I had to do...... which was to gave him or her a little help (no way was i going to let them be all comfy, cozy and warm under my skin) But what I ended up finding was a large group of these so called words partying it up in there under my skin. I continued my nervous breakdown, screaming, crying hysterically and so creeped out wanting to throw up and oh soo soo alone. I was home alone when it started and even though my son and husband came home I was still so totally alone but this time with the extra pain of not being acknowledged and ignored. They went to bed and I was left with the sickening thought of more of these things coming out during my sleep. It has been the worst part and I am so afraid to even touch my skin, it makes me sick. I constantly worry they are creeping out again and forever keep looking in the mirror hoping for none.

the hair issue is one i dealt with in the beginning. i have long brown hair and thought it was coming from my head each time i washed my hair. I hate hair. I was dumbfounded each time i took a shower and kept finding hair all twisted up and yes i did see it move. it took a while but i finally figured it out is was coming from somewhere on my back.


And yes I too saw things come right through my skin and evaporate into my skin - I thought I was seeing things at first when I would see black specks melt into my skin. Two weeks ago I was going to take my son to San Francisco for the day. I decided to use my regular antibacterial soap vs. the peppermint & menthol cleanser. I felt fine getting in but when i got out I didn't feel right and started to feel itchy & when i looked down at my body - there was so much of everything (except the worms) all over me and not stopping so I had to jump back in and take another with the peppermint soap which worked but didn't work for my poor soon who I couldn't take to SF. He was devastated.


Thank you for confirming that I am not crazy, there is something that hurts and feels like glass, there is pieces of hair that look like their tied up in the middle and about those worms???????
one more ugly thing about me, I have scars everywhere.

[fracty]

Tanya, you are not crazy. But we all have been betrayed by the medical "profession."

At the same time, you do want to keep getting them out so they cannot damage your nervous system.

SOme inexpensive things to use:

baking soda mixed w water. Make it into a paste and use it as a poultice to get them out. You can just put it on as a paste, and then keep reapplying it dry all the time. They just dont like it. I used to carry a box in my car and kept putting it on my face at least once an hour.

aqua net - for temporary relief you might be bable to plaster your hair down w it. It got it to temporarily stop in my case (I found tehy were hatching out of my head and hair and if I did not get them out in the shower then they tried to burrow into my skin creating sores. keeping the hair away from my face stopped a lot.

Soak for hours in epsom salt. Read all your favoirite books. I am not kidding that at first I soaked probably 18 to 20 hours a day. My skin shriveled up but it was the only way to stop the itching and biting at first. They do come out after soaking in salt. on days where I had a lot of stuff coming out, I kept filling and emptying the tub because some kinds try to go back into you. SO I would wash them down the drain and try not to touch them.

dr staningers portocol of using the two soaps together to get the stuff out. There is a thread here about that. I will try to find or maybe someone else here knows.

you might find it helpful to rub BioSilk in and that may get them out too - if you have it laying around the house. I used to use that stuff all the time before getting this.

And finally, I dont know Drs there but I would EITHER call Dr Staninger - she will treat you remotely AND/OR get "The Detox Strategy" book from the library or buy it (by Brenda Watson). The detox strategies in there are very similar to Dr S's strategies, and if you cannt afford her now at least you can start doing some of the things. I am steadily working my way through all Brenda Watson ReNew cleanses. You can buy them online or at Whole Foods.

Please let me or any of us know anything we can do to help you. I wish it was more for now. BUt I hope those things are a start.

[ChatCat]

Hi Tanya,

So sorry your going through all of this. Morg really does rob us of life.
There is hope for us getting it back though and I am right in the middle of this process and doing much better.

You can get there too but it will take time and hard work.

I mentioned this is almost all of my posts because it is saving my life. Dr. Staninger is literally saving my life. She will help you with tons of info through consultation over the phone. You can also review the thread:
Dr. Staninger's Protocol and other important info
This thread is not meant to replace her consultation. It is only to help support each other through using her protocol.

I live in CA also N. of S.F. Send me a private message and we can talk on the phone if you want.

Hang in there and never give up fighting.

Lots of love from all of us, cc

[labrat]

iv had them worms falling off me by literally soaking my whole body from top to bottom in baby oil.. thnk it suffocates them.. what is really working for me these days is zink tabs.. i take 10 a day.. they hate zink.. be strong and remember ur not alone.. and please dont lose ur faith believe me HE does keep us strong

[Dzana]

I started taking zinc too but i get such a sick feel in my guts each time i swallow them as if I m gonna throw up __is that normal???

dzana xx

[tcmgpt13]

Zinc is reputed to kill nematodes, so if you have parasites in your stomach it might make you feel nauseous or cause vomiting of the parasites when you use zinc. Here's one member's posts about using zinc to help control her parasites:

Eat Your Minerals

ZINC powder on lesion turns larva to mush

What causes Morgellons and the Cure IMO

The Bad Morgie Ears Thread (permalink 10)

[Enviro Girl]

Hey Dzana, What's up?!
Zinc also made me nauseous, I used to take 2 tabs of that + 2 tabs of Vit C to ward off colds - C alone was OK. Never tried zinc alone. (always felt like I drank 10 espressos )
Ppl thought I was saying that B4 to perpetuate bickering and will likely FLARE UP at me, kinda hard to believe anyone healing from Morgellon's has that kind o time on their hands...
I speak only facts, from my own experiences or that of whom I can personally verify in real life and observe and question.
Labrat, you sound awesome, no harm intended, I might just have a wimpy belly...

[kckc]

Glad you found this site , I hope you will find beneficial information here.
Love and Blessings, kckc
P.s if you still want to talk on the phone LMK.

[Dzana]

TY tcmgpt 13

it is just all so confusing what r we dealing with Nematodes, fly larvaes, fibers, etc etc WHAT R WE DEALING WITH ---- I HAVE TOO MANY FORMS COMING OUT OF ME .... BLOBS LARVAE BLACK SPECKS SKIN PLSTIFICATION FIBERS FROM THE MOUTH BLOBS IN THE MOUTH ........... WHAT R WE DEALING WITH????
I think i m gonna end up mental

[Dzana]

HEY ENVIRO,

ah i m just rotting away , confused and alone ,,, I m under Jo's protocol but after reading all these stories something is telling me that is so scary WHAT IF NOTHING ELSE HELPS BUT DR STANINGERS FIR AND HER PROTOCOL -- HOW IS THE REST OF THE WORLD GONNA DEAL WITH THIS --- NOW R WE ALL GONNA DIE SLOWLY.

I HAVE ONE MORE QUESTION -- IF THESE R NOT PARASITES WHY WE DO SMELL ON THEM AS IF THERE IS A NASTY ODOUR THAT COMES WITH IT--- MY FRIENDS DOG WHO CONSTANTLY KEEP GETTING SHOTS AGAINST FLIES SMELLS THE SAME?
dzana xx