I'm really scared because I'm uniformed

[girlsoalone]

I'm scared and I would your knowledge of the disease.

Please, please, don't think I'm silly. I didn't even know Morgellons existed until a few weeks ago.

Can you catch it from deep kissing, or touching and petting without sex?

Is it possible for a fiber to craw into someone's eye and infect them?

What are the initial symptoms? Most people I've read about described an initial experience with a vector such as tick, biting fly, flea, mite, or spider and a rapid outbreak of sores, others say the disease was dormant inside them for years.

Maybe it's my Catholic guilt, but I am sure I felt something from a partner's shoulder crawl into my eye as I had my head propped there while we lay in bed naked. Then I felt it crawl to the back of my eye and near my temple, then sinus after which I got localized headaches in those areas and sinus drip and sensations which I've never before had. My experience with him happened in February.

Also, after reading a bit about Morgellons his odd behavior got a new context. He blinked a lot like he had something in his eye, I thought it was bc he had broke his glasses, but he didn't stop after getting new ones. He didn't wear socks, and took a lot of saunas, and always wanted to bathe before he came over. I just thought then that he had some I'm silly, I know, but really I'm just scared.

Maybe it was just a regular parasite? I'm afraid that if it's Morgellons it's lying dormant and I can give it to my loved ones just as easily.

I know this is probably sounds irrational but it's because I'm uniformed. I would have never thought twice about it, never found out about Morgellons, if I hadn't looked up parasite in eye.

After that, I kept feeling like there was something in my eye, and my sinuses... I also started getting a lot of floaters. Interestingly these floater drastically reduced after doing a dewormer treatment.

I also started taking garlic. I thought that if I started early, I could make my body so inhospitable that it would be detained or killed. I was just so scared upon realizing there might be a possiblity.

I have lupus and only recently have been getting my life back.

I went ahead and got a black light, and all I found it seems was cotton lint, nothing growing from me. I have no sores and while I have had pimples and wounds since then they have healed appropriately. I did feel itchiness which sorta starting all this but it seemed to have been due to a sensibility to armour thyroid.

I don't, I don't know, I don't know, and it's not as if I can talk to my doctor about this. I just don't want to give it or anything to my family. I would die, I couldn't couldn't live with myself and prefer to become isolated if that is necessary.

I went to my mom's birthday party, and I kept releasing lint everytime I shook my hair which landed everywhere ... it was after I had washed it. It was odd even to my sister but my car was pretty dirty and so was my room from where I came and so I rationalize it, otherwise I would just break down, though it's silly since I don't even know.

I've read couple testimonials about people thinking they gave it to their partner through sex, I didn't have sex though... or that fibers seemed attracted to body heat, or that friends and family got it through close association or that fibers were everywhere around them.

I was just wondering if from your experiences a fiber or whatever organism it is was capable of infection by such means.

Also, if it is and I do possibly have it, will I infect my extended family if I live among them in our home for a month or two.

Please don't judge my naiveness. I just don't know what to think or do and there's no one who I can go to to inform and take me seriously.

Now that I know about Morgellons, I can't eliminate the possibility, and short of calling him I don't know what to do. I've been so upset, please help me.

Thank you and I'm sorry about the ramble.