Bell-Curve of healing

[jonsi]

I was thinking about the path Morgellons takes from when we first get "sick" and start noticing something is definitely wrong, to the symptoms and changes in symptoms as this progresses.

Is there an up side when we are getting sicker and sicker. Is there a "peak" (or top of the bell curve) when we are at the worst, or in the middle of this disease. Is there a down side as we start to clear our brains and get our strength and our lives back. Remission, or natural progression?

Are there steps or symptoms we all experience and is there an order in those symptoms? Do we all go through them before we get to the "down" side? What helps expedite the symptoms and what relieves the symptoms? Do prescription medications (anti-biotics) help relieve symptoms while at the same time preventing the progression to the down side?

I feel that I am back to 95% of what I was before I got Morgellons. I wrote this to MELISSAJ: "Melissa - I have noticed the ammonia smell and tiny fibers floating around too. There are so many crazy "symptoms" I have gone through also." Are these symptoms of the down side?

~jonsi

[nick@nite]

I am itching and have more crawling and stinging now than when I started with my sysmtoms.

Drives me nuts and I try everything and right now nothing seems to work, so I will try antibiotics .

Its no fun living like this, I would rather live with side effects of anti's then feel this
wacked out crazyness evryday.

The crawling freaks me out espeicaly on my private's, ears , nose............

I see what this has done to my wife, I get very very angry..........what she went througgh with so called doctors.............

anyway, I am still greatfull my son has no symtoms ....

[Bad_Boy]

I am still greatfull my son has no symtoms ....

Me too, Nick.

In case anyone wants to know, here's a little more about bell curves.

[Kritters]

Oh, wait.....

We weren't talking about my body?

Kritts

[redibooks]

I wonder about the bell curve also and I wonder about when many people seem to feel a remission at the same time. Its all so overwhelming....

Originally Posted by nick@nite

The crawling freaks me out espeicaly on my private's, ears , nose............

Nick, I use a product called NCD Natural Cellular Defense. Its a liquid suspension of Zeolite minerals and though I'm sure its not recommended, I use it for eye drops when I feel crawling in my eyes. I also used it in my ears when I felt crawling there, and in my nostrils, (I drip it on my finger and rub it in my nose) and it really has helped me a ton in those areas. Its meant as a natural detox, and when I first started using it, I took it as drops in water as intended. Over this past two years, (nearly), I've stopped drinking it and I figure I absorb it through my eye balls NCD is a multi level product (I don't sell anything) but I found it helpful enough to keep buying it. I was first told about it when I went to an intuitive Dr. early in my infection. Later I signed up from some woman over the net that also says she used it to help her with morgellons.

The other thing that helped me in my nose and "privates" is food grade DE, or Fossil Shell Flour. It might be worth giving a try. I also took fenbendazole, a dog wormer a number of times and though its not a cure, it helps sometimes when symptoms are getting bad. I'm now on antibiotics and have been nearly a year and I'm much better, but not back to normal.

maybe this will be our year!

xo karen

[hilly]

Nick... I've found Flucloxacillin to be very good at taking away the stinging and biting.. it does'nt take the fibres and threads away as it apparently works just on the surface of the skin, but the relief from the stinging is well worth having. Best luck.. Milly x

[Jason]

Nick - I remember you saying your wife and yourself had an appointment with a lyme specialist mid to late december. Did that eventuate and if so what happened? Did they do tests or clinically assess you both. Did the doctor prescribe any medication i hope he didn't say nothing was wrong.

[jonsi]

YES! YES! YES! Emily!

I would smell tar or the smell of tires "peeling out", so does my daughter after she takes a bath in Miracle II soap (which I swear works-it breaks up the fungus that this spreads with...) Even the lady I work with will even plug her nose and tell me I stink, like I am burning rubber...

So, this is a great sign I feel! I read your other posts and was going to respond to you feeling really good and then, plunk, more fibers to remind us of what is in us or round us. Oh well, I think once a morgie always... I think EVERYONE has this already, it comes from our environment and foods and air and water. Depressing, I know.

But Emiily, your spirit is starting to return! Cooking and wanting to be around others is great. I hadn't cooked in over 3 years and just started again, a month ago. Now, while I am cooking or moving around I will feel the fibers on my face and arms, but not on covered parts of my body so that tells me the fibers, some white, some black specks that open into the fibers, etc are coming from the outside, trying to get in. I do not feel them biting me anymore. I have cleaned up my diet and don't put "unknowns' into my body for the morgellons to retrieve and get rid of for me. Does this make sense?

I try to make myself turn off the tv and put on some music that speaks to my soul, words that I have never heard before but sound like a familiar message from a long lost friend. Reconnecting with spirit and the wonderful music that some are so blessed to write.

Here goes me-"crazy', tell the Moregellons that they are not allowed to be in your body and that your body is soviergn, for your spirit only and that they make your body sick and not able to serve its purpose, for your soul to experience the life that the Holy Spirit gave you to live in this 3-dimensional world. Explain that our bodies were created for our souls (alone, not sharing with the Morgellons) to experience "life" and when they are present they rob you of your purpose for being here. Tell them that they make you sad, that they make you weak, that they make you hurt, that they are interfering with your divine purpose. Say this out loud.

There is so much darkness in this world in these times. I believe that Morgellons gets into those of the light, trying to rob our purpose of being here. My "prayer" every morning is to please surround me with the white light of the Holy Spirit, to absorb my illness and the darkness that surrounds me, to let only light and love shine from me, to surround and protect me with a circle of mirrors, to let me know what I am supposed to do and let me know what I have no power over. And if I don't get the message strong enough to please kick me, really hard (!) in the butt so I understand what my purpose is and to get it done.

I also notice some days I smell ammonia. My lesions now only produce white/clear plastic looking "scabs" that feel like I am peeling vel-cro off my skin. I can tell it comes from very deep. The appearance on my skin is very slight, not like the dark bloody lesions before. Of course the pattern or scars on my skin probably will never be erased. I think it is through and through every cell in my body.

This is getting to be very long. Emily, are you taking any prescription anti-biotics? I'm really not dogging anyone who has found temporary relief from meds. just wonder what else is in those prescriptions that our bodies have no idea what to do with...getting back to mother nature and natural foods, herbs, plants homeopathic medicines that our ancestors knew of, but were not passed down to our generation because of easier "take a pill" remedies that make a lot of money for those that want to suppress the masses by making us sick... line up everyone for your pill today so your high cholosterol, high blood pressure, can't hold it, can't get it up, be "happy" don't worry pill...everything is ok as long as you have your pill... Big money in convenience foods...save time on cooking so you can work longer and make more money to pay for insurance so you meds are "covered". What is in those convenience foods..?

(Ok-I know I am asking for it from some people here, but I am feeling pretty damned good and I wouldn't say it unless I felt it to be true)

~jonsi