Mentally going down hill

[Steve Frey]

I was just looking at my lessions with my microscope again. How can anyone argue that these things exist when I can see dozens of them in my skin! This is ridiculous. I feel like I'm starting to lose it now. God I hope someone comes up with an answer soon. I started taking garlic tablets and vitamin c today an will report back if they help.

[oregon]

safrey,
Don't give up. The garlic tablets and vitamin c should help. Have you been doing the treatment steps outlined by bubba? There is lots of help here, and I think the answer is coming soon. Keep fighting.
Oregon

[linnysue]

safrey:
Yes, I agree, don't give up. Along with the use of vitamin C and garlic, try the treatment steps outlined by bubba. I have found improvement using this plan. So have many others on this board.

I struggle with fear, anxiety, depression and hopelessness, but I have found much help and support here from the folks on this board. It is a battle, but thank God for those who have gone before us and have found relief, healing, and success, and have shared their experiences with us.

I wish you well in your healing journey.

Linda P.

[jano]

Hi safrey,

Yes - as Oregon and linnysue have said - don't give up. There IS hope, there IS a light at the end of the tunnel in dealing with this. Don't let it overwhelm you. The treatment steps listed by Bubba (salt/peroxide soaks, alternate with vinegar/salt soaks and was with Selsun Blue anti-dandruff shampoo). I have been doing the treatment steps and they are definitely helping. In addition, I have been taking the vitamin C supplements and odor-free garlic supplements daily. There are other steps that Bubba has posted that have helped her and others as well - I just haven't taken the time to obtain some of those (lazy me). The other item that has been absolutely fabulous is the DSP lotion.

I just started using it on Friday, today is my third day and I can't believe the difference. My skin is so calmed down, it is so soft, even where I had lesions and scar tissue before. I saw my dermatologist today and she couldn't believe the difference. This cream, along with the soaks is making this crap come out of my skin - gross - yes, but it is coming out and not just setting up shop there. I can tell that behind the expulsion of the white and black plugs and specks, and fibers - it is healing right from the bottom out. That to me is amazing.

So hang in there - I've had this for 11 years and I am not about to give up. We are here to help and lean on. There are so many absolutly wonderful people on this site - it makes me so glad I found it.

[carla]

I just wanted to add that bubba is right about the microscope thing. Put it away for now and concentrate on treatment steps and get DSP cream. It`s amazing

[deluded]

Originally Posted by safrey@earth

I was just looking at my lessions with my microscope again. How can anyone argue that these things exist when I can see dozens of them in my skin! This is ridiculous. I feel like I'm starting to lose it now. God I hope someone comes up with an answer soon. I started taking garlic tablets and vitamin c today an will report back if they help.

Safrey...I believe that Bubba gives good advice and the advice to stop looking is probably a good one, and it would probably alleviate the time that I spend obscessing over what is on me, and in me, and all around me....I had a regular microscope, but I put it away, and only use my little pocket one from Radio Shack....Bubba again...she told me where to get it...and I really like it...She is probably right though about not looking at the skin all the time, but I can't do it...I cannot help myself...I may be a bit OCDish.....but I want to know if it is something and what stage it is in, or what it looks like, and it definitely creeps me out, but I still have to know...just want to save specimens, which probably totally contaminates my house, because I noticed a lot of the specimens that I have had for awhile, that I was so careful to cover completely with clear tape on both sides...well, there are fibers growing on the tapes now, even on the outside...and worms...you can see them as plain as day...I used to think that the fibers were like a cocoon that this bug has woven, but now I think that they are for the most part, worms in a ball like baby garter snakes do...they will entwine themselves into a ball...but they seem to have eyes from the inside of every lint ball of fibers...and they have a shadow inside that makes me believe there is a worm in there...I have some other stuff that is bothering me...I have been doing a lot of reading lately, and the subject of chemtrails comes up, and so does the subject of cotton... it is mentioned quite frequently...I did a test that someone suggested about the q-tip...look at the stray loose outside fibers and hold it very still and see if they don't move...the tester said to do it and that they did it and I think 4 out of 5 swabs had fibers on them,,,the cotton,,,,and I did the same test, and they almost always go towards your skin, if you put it near your finger...it is amazing,,,,and I protected myself from any air circulation...every time, some of them moved...and they do stand up like seahorses...wild...also...I took my pocket microscope and looked at something on my shirt, and there were dark things hidden behind every weave in my white cotton shirt...it was obvious they were worms...it is so bizarre...also, I am just finding so much here lately, and it is almost like they are hatched from a type of honey conb or a type of mold was cut for the critters to come out of...like it was cut out of the piece and there it is, the exact shape that came out of the brown honey comb...I wish I had one of those microscopes that takes pictures, and one day soon, I have to get one, so that I can prove to others that I am not delusional...maybe a little batty, but not delusional...and the sights that I am seeing I think need to be recorded so others can see...I think we need to try to get more pics on the site to prove or disprove the common threads that we all have...very strange threads at that...sci-fi threads, too...I just can't stand thinking about what is going on in my brain....not a lot, it would seem...ha...but something is messing with me....and I have to know what it is....I won't give up....but what a stressful thing to deal with....it is more than anything I have ever seen.....God will get me through this, I know...cuz I can't do it alone....and thank God for this place,.....well, my son just went back to college today. and I miss him already...by myself pouting....my 18, almost 19 yrs old son, who took me out on a date the other night...to eat at O'Charley's, he knew that this was going to be tough on me all over again...him going back to college...i revolved every thing around him before he left, and now, he is only home every couple weeks...heck,I still revolve everything around him....but he deserves it....well, once again,,,rattling again...Kentucky haze

[Steve Frey]

I want to thank each and every one of you for the tremendous support when I need it the most, your all terrific! Bubba I'm going to take your advice and retire the microscope for the time being. I ordered the DSP yesterday and will start the other treatment procedures tomorrow after aquiring the necessary materials. I've also found some very fascinating articles by Cliff Mickelson that you all may or may not have come accross, see my new topic in general discussion. Once again thank you all so much. I plan to be very active in the search for answers regarding this disease so you all will be hearing from me quite a bit.

[Franky]

safrey keep your chin up! Take my word for it, I have seen this progress from bad to worse to almost to death. Its just like cancer and many other conditions, you have to keep in the fight. Once you give up mentally, then thats half the battle for it to take you over. Try to find people close to you to confide in. Come here and cry your guts if needed but hang in there.

[linnysue]

safrey, I've been thinking of you and wondering how you're doing. I hope you are trying the treatment steps and you are doing well. Please let us know how you are.

Linda P.

[ladycolorado]

Originally Posted by safrey@earth

I was just looking at my lessions with my microscope again. How can anyone argue that these things exist when I can see dozens of them in my skin! This is ridiculous. I feel like I'm starting to lose it now. God I hope someone comes up with an answer soon. I started taking garlic tablets and vitamin c today an will report back if they help.

safrey please look at my recommendations to relive brainfog. the green cumin cheap in supermarket even have link to buy cheap caps online.it will at least take four days to absorb into your system but worth the try and i will say nil side effects. i hope this helps.