god bless franky, his long suffering friend, bubba, and the others in here

[ladycolorado]

i sincerly apologize for the times i wax negative especially in the weak times of agony. the cumin is a shield to the attack of the central and peripheral nervous system, it is a tool but i admit at times with the chronic fatigue i still can slide. like the big boo boo of omitting not with dying. i read over a few times missed it.yes, we can all sound like loonies, but not because insane, but because of this ravaging disease.in exteme fatigue, have even had the word switching.yes i suffer, but more good days now then bad. a question? how the hell can those who have suffered so long deal? if there are different strains, then mine must be a nasty one.ive only been ill since september. i sent daughter away, to save her she had had the mutant lice and bugs too. but i must admit i am so evil to roll the dice like i have. i sent her to a household with many children, my son and six kids one a baby. (the woman had five kids already from previous marriage) dumb ex at 40 knocked her up again. but my sweet daughter to watch the ainations flying from her head to see the colored fibers and pink specks erupt from her hand was too much. so i am evil and endangered an infant.and children. but i could not risk her geniuos being deconstruted into agony, add or autism. thank god i won and all are fine.i am just showing you folks my vulnerability my humanity. no never to be negative or to panic.i am purely myself, and many strangers loathe me for it.but thank you all so much, for being my brothers and sisters. without you i would be a ship in the fog, with no compass. its just some people think im so perfect, but i am just human, and flawed.i am weak too. if some think im heroric what choice do i have? to resist bringing whatever good and healing to others would be futile. i love all of us in here, ty so much. we will win, never give up. i implore you all.