WHEN I WRITE THIS OLD BUT LETTING GO OLD PAIN SO COOL NOW

[ladycolorado]

Look at the lyrics to this Evanessesnce song: I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I would give the very breath from my chest
To give you all the things that my mind couldn't bear
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I'd love to walk away and pull myself out of the rain
But I can't leave without you
I'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt
But I can't live without you
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

here is one from Matchbox Twenty lyrics to Bent: And if I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

And if I need some other love then
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

And if I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces

Start bending me
Keep bending me until
I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
and without understanding

Hell, I'll go there again
Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent
I am past his but being away from hubby 13 months him having to work away how it hurt. Thank God the noble veteran is back,(LC) P.S>Saying Goodbye to old baggage

[Kritters]

LC,

Saying "goodbye" to old baggage is major step to recovery....mental, emotional and physical.

I'm rooting for you. You are so going to make it.

Kritts

[ladycolorado]

I will kritts trust me, I hate this disease as we all do. I trust you, wanted to know if others heard these song lyrics when sad. It is okay to be sad as long as we move past it. For all my reputation, I am just as human as you. The ones sick in here yes,will have more control and get well. But dang-nabbit, I must cry too and vent. I am not a moderator. Just average joe like you all. However, with 90 percent remission I hurt, I do. If I could pass out a miracle cure I would. Alas, we all have a need to vent and thus stay human. Not wallow. To those of us have a need wish to write of trial this is okay. We all have then they need to be heard in staying well.Well as far as those I scare well no worries I am very tough. Venting, though is needed to get well. So, I share my weakness and my recovery, not picture perfect, I regret but this is me, (LC).