I Just Want To Die

[labrat]

any suggestions on how to do this without leaving pain and heartache?

[labrat]

just wanna lie down close my eyes and never wake up

[KiraErikson]

If you want to die after recently getting Morgellons, don't worry, this is a common reaction. Later you'll get mad and start fighting back and succeeding (just read the posts to learn treatments).

If you've had this for over a year and still want to die, get professional help -- sometimes counties offer social services (altho right now all social services are being cut).

Also, if you're ready to die, go to your local newspapers and talk to them about what is happening. Ask them to write an article about your situation. If they think you're delusional, show them this website and how many intelligent people have written in with the same "delusion."

I wish I could offer you better help -- hope someone else can. So many of us are already consumed with trying to fight this thing.

[labrat]

thanks.. iv lived with this hell for more than 5yrs and still wanna die.. im tired of this double life.. work during day and fight this demon all night and pretend to everyone im normal when im not.. im sick of this.. so how can i end it?

[Baraka Obam]

You need to cry out loud, like Kira says, turn crying into anger, reach out and make some noise. If your alone get with a church. There are many people on earth right now that want to live so badly, they are dying as I type this, some horrible violent deaths, you have the ability to change things, get with it. I feel your pain as it is my own, sorry you feel this way now. What are your major problems are you not healing at all????? The program sucks but it is all we have. There are people here that will call and talk with you, try it, you will feel relief from it.

[ChatCat]

Hi Labrat,


Please hang in there. We are all teaming together to live and beat this monster. I became suicidal since the Morg symptoms were so intense during my crisis.

I am now almost completely symptom free. Just working on the brain area, eye and ears. It was all over my body with lesions and fibers.

Very tormenting and like being in Hell. I really know this place of despair.

There is hope for recovery, we will help you to get there.
Research on this site like crazy and you will find answers to help you.

Other people need you to help them once you get well. We need each other to win this war and we will. I am very confident of this since I have seen it leaving my body.
PM me with your phone number if you want me to call you.
I understand exactly what you are going through and I am sorry you have suffered for so long.

God bless you!! cc

[fracty]

LabRat,

PLEASE hang in there!!!! I think you have it even harder than a lot of us, because it seems ilke you do not have access to a lot of the products we are using that are helpful.

Let's try to brain storm together to help find solutions that will work for you!!! I'm going to message you too, and maybe we can start talking in email about things that will help you.

I know how awful it feels tho, but maybe not as badly as you. Like I said, I think in my area I have access to more helpful products. but I do know, at least to some extent how horrible it feels. I kept thinking at one point all I wanted to do was find one of those government installed booths where you go to be turned into a green cracker and end it all. But I knew I could not because first of all, I knew it would have left a nightmare for any and all of my family - even the remote ones who are not supportive. And even friends, etc. I don't think there is any way not to hurt ppl. And I dont think it solves the problem in the long run. Also, I am much better than before and so things are better now. I know of other ppl too who, like you, were sick for a long time and felt those same types of feelings, but then found ways to start getting better, and now are so happy they hung in there. So let's try to get you well to the point you feel differently too.

I'm sending you a big hug right now!!!!! And lots of love!!!! And I'm pretending to send you some homemade cookies, but I don't cook too well so maybe you don't want those.

Please keep in touch with me and promise not to do anything to harm yourself.

XXXXX
Fracty

[cynical]

Labrat,

Hang in there this will pass. I have felt the same as you so many times. Try to find something to distract you from it that you love to do. Pick up a paint brush or a book or turn on your old favorite music. I find starting a project in the house helps me not to think about it. We are all here for you and we all know how you are feeling. My prayers are with you.

[Bustercat]

Labrat, its good that you are able to express your pain. Think about those who have nowhere to go, and no compatriots. The other morgies board has all but pulled up carpet and left. That makes me feel abandoned. That's where the rubber hit's the road. We, thank God, have one another. My family refuses to be supportive, my shrink thinks I'm totally loosing it. My medical clinic wont recognize morgellons. We are in the dark ages with this miserable mess. It gets very lonley in this life with a Hydra's head, I've got one too. When I play with them, it can get spooky. In my mouth, in around the teeth, its unbelieveable. You've come this far, we need you! Laughter is the best medicine and I need to find some too. Thanks for sharing. For my Bustercat who bless his kitty heart, fought the good fight for two years, went home to kitty heaven suffering from deadly morgellons. I was happy his pain was over, but I miss him so much.

[tcmgpt13]

Bustercat,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your cat. The grief I know is very painful (have lost a few dogs along the way). It is hard enough being sick, but when we lose our loving companions to Morgs well....words are insufficient. I am praying that over time your heart will heal and the world will hold some laughter again for you. Meanwhile I am glad we are all here and can offer comfort to one another.

tcmxxx