A different Light

[Natalie]

Im writing this post to say I apaologise for pushing my thoughts on to you people. I may not have SAID words but I have had thoughts, and for me they are real and felt.
Ive been like a mother superior with my fervent pushing of others to do what I think is best. Im a control freak and I realize it. I grew up in a loud negative violent family and have been unable to feel comfortable with people fighting or being mad. I know its life and Im tring to keep my nose out of peoples discussions.
I see things differently than most. Im not ashamed, but I do have to learn my space and yours are ok to just be.

If MDR be for us, then who can be against us??? A little play on a verse from the Bible that I have sayed over and over when Im scared.

I also want to ask those who pray, send them my way? My oldest daughtwer is having an unessacary operation Tuesday. Im surprised and disgusted a doctor would even do this, or her letting them. Knowing she has strange liver counts. Chronic Bronchitus, a heavy pot smoker, shes thin and not mentally staright. She is kind, a go getter, but is in denial.

Me trying to control. BUT, I havent called to talk her out of it. I did say weeks ago after a dream, please dont go through with it. You arent well and you know it!

Our children are all loved no matter how old they are. Isnt it hard to love someone and let them go?

Thanks for lstening.

[Sadsack]

Nat -
What kind of surgery is she having? In today's economy I thought elective surgery was a thing of bygone eras!
Learning to live and let live is VERY tough for some. I had to have many, many lessons before I finally "got it".
SS

[niecy]

Natalie,

I just wanted to say that I think you are a very sweet lady. I haven't felt like you have tried to be a "mother superior". But I will say that it's obvious that you are a very caring and loving person.....and ain't nothing wrong with people caring and loving other people!

I too would like to "fix it" when I see people arguing, if it ain't me doing the arguing. We all have different emotions and feelings. There are so many people here from so many different places in the world and so many different walks of life, it's actually pretty amazing that things run as smoothly as they do. I have read several forums and feel that this one is the best all around. There are some very intelligent people here that are working very hard to try and find an answer. It wouldn't surprise me if some of them haven't gotten it all figured out, but proving things will be difficult.

I can totally emphathise with you about your children, totally. I have three grown children, and grandchildren, and another one on the way. There was two on the way, but my son's didn't make it, they had a miscarriage. It was difficult for everyone, but they will make it through because they are strong, and young, and their faith is always there to guide them through life's difficult situations.

I somehow feel that at long as we are alive (mom's) we will be striving to make our children's lives better, and don't ever let anyone make you feel bad for loving your children with all of your heart! It is very hard to know where to draw the line sometimes, but no one knows their kids better than their Momma's, and I am sure you are no exception. When you have to stop talking to them is when you get to start talking to God, and there is no better person to talk to. And that statement is not meant to "push" religion on anyone, this post is directed to you, and no one else, and I know from reading your posts that you have faith in Him.

I do pray, and I will be saying one for you and all of your children. And when you read this maybe you will do the same for me.

Thank you for caring for everyone here.....it's good to know that people still care about their brothers and sisters!

Niecy
xoxoxo

[Natalie]

Dearest Niecy before I finished reading your post I said Im gonna pray for her and everyones children on MDR! Thankyou for your love. I felt it, and took it in. Feels good to be loved. I mean, we all have blood relatives or friends, but who knows us like each other. We have had to share so much of ourselves and yes our personalities too. We have to. And I also know that this is the best site for our health. WE do have the most incredible bunch of people. Theres probably many more wonderful souls justing listening and they too add there positive thoughts also. God bless all that come here, whether a member or not. We need your support.

My friend Sadsack! She is having a boob job. Didnt want to say it. Then the question is why. She is way better looking than me, gorgeous body, eyes that smile and a mouth of laughter a mile long!! But shes not good enough to do what she does and thats her business. So I wont say anymore ok?

I get it, then I lose it! Haha. Not funny though huh? verydays a new life, just wish it wasnt mine sometimes!!

Thanks a million everyone. you are all in my prayers even if nothing is asked or said.

[terri]

Natalie, I understand exactly where you are my daughter is going to have surgery too for uterine fibroids,she isnt healthy either she has had a high blood count for two years and she has the flu she did listen to me about putting it off for a week but the Drs office said to let the anesthesiologist make the decision after finding out she couldnt beat this flu on her own she asked the Dr for antibiotics which they refused telling her to take an over the counter medicinine for coughs shes been taking it but no better yet,her pre op is tomorrow so we will see what the anesthesiologist says then.I say if he says its a go,no but will she listen?

[Natalie]

I also have to say none of you irritate me! At all. If anyone drives me nuts its me! Yeah I know I sound like Im brushing over, but trully Im not. Im learning so much about myself here and how to react or not react.

Im also contemplating going into ministry in some way. How can help is the question I ask all the time. What kind of career do I want? Who am I? What are my ideals?


Takes some of us a long time!

I have no idea how to go about it, so Ill keep going to my church and getting more involved. LIke I dont have enough on my plate? Maaaybe all the wrong things is what God just told me! LOl!

Thankyou all for helping me with my life. You have no idea how irreplacable you are. I always want you in my life somehow some way!

[Natalie]

Bless you Terri! What an awesome mom you are too. All of us are in prayer for all our children!
My kid has those fibroids too! They ask me for antibiotics all the time. When this child of mine had teeth surgery two years ago the dentist wouldnt give her antiBs either. I encouraged her to take some before surgery. She wouldnt. And dont you know she got all infected after 3 days! They always say Im sorry but still they move along like the liver is nothing, the lungs are nothing. I guess good old mom saved them too many times!
Time to let go!!

Blood work on Tuesday will be good. Is that what she will have done?

[Natalie]

My daughter is out of surgery. Yeouch! Havent seen her but can imagine. Now she has to get through staying infection clean. Oh boy. Im happy she is alive for sure. ThankGod.

Thankyou for your thoughts!

[Kritters]

Nat,

Have you given her any probiotics to take? and vitamin c?

hope she's well.

Kritts

[Jo]

Hi ya Nat,

Very glad and happy for you and your family, that your daughters surgery went well. Keep hurdling them hurdles ;o)

Love ya

Jo xxx