In like a baby tornado, sorry!!

[Natalie]

Im writing this post to apologise for my demanding and sometimes childish arrogance. Im not looking for sympathy from this post. I came here with such gusto and fearless abandon and that is not a good way to start! I thought I knew everything. I felt like an abndoned child. I wanted you people to feel bad for me and I for you!! DUH for real!! That isnt how I feel now. Ive had a chance to just sit back and see we are all in this together and none of us is gonna save anyones butt from this disease. But through our listening and sharing with each other hopefully we can get through each day with hope. I still cry sometimes when I read others posts and feel so bad. Instead of wallowing in my own crap Im sending out white light of love to myself and others here. Some here have said to me, Nat give me your phone number, Ill give you mine! What did I do? I got cold feet and said, Oh no, Im just fine without your help! But here I am needing your help. So you can see Im the sort who isnt quite all together. I know its the symptoms of Morgs that exasberate my sensitivity. Anyway, I am here to stay, to learn, to listen and share. Peace to all of you, in all sincerity, Natalie

[jonsi]

Hi Natalie,

The name you gave this thread "in a baby tornado" caught my eye!

My reiki (meditation) therapist told me a while back that it is important to stay in the eye of the storm, where it is calm. In the eye, one can observe the chaos whirling around, but to step out into the chaos is to get swept away. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying we should sit back and let life pass us by. We need to get centered and grounded for the upcoming events that were prophecized long go. We are going to be fine. We are rising to a higher vibrational level. Perhaps this is why we are more affected by Morgellons than others.

When our time comes, we will be able to show others that we survived this and show them how to do it also. We are much stronger than we know!

Kritters asked why I use "in the white light" under her thread Ear ache, head ache... and so I answered her question there. Well, she got my ball rolling on talking about my spiritual beliefs...enough for now! I've got to take a shower and step out into the real world and go to work.

In the white light,

~jonsi

[jonsi]

Hi again Natalie,

I got carried away and forget to say that I'm glad that you are here!

I don't know what is "in the air", but a lot of us are experiencing more symptoms of Morgellons this past month...

~jonsi

[Franky]

Natalie thank you for such a heart felt post! I really wish more people would come to the same conclusion as you. This disease has affected us all in various ways, regardless if we have it or not. Sometimes people forget that not only are you sick, but so is your fellow member here. We all have ideas and thoughts and we need to share it in a productive way. This is supposed to be a community site.

[Natalie]

Thanks everyone. This has taken me for quite a ride but I will do what you suggest Jonsi and find a place of calmness no matter what is happening! I love that you are expressing youre spiritual side. I felt a little awkward at first cause who wants to be put down ya know? Hopefully everyone will understand theres no wrong or right with our different faiths, its what works for us or them thats right. God gets me out of alot of JAMS because I ask. But only when I ask! Thats all I had to do... and I thought I was alone, No siree bud! I have been given dreams almost every night on how to handle what Im going through. Not THE answer to solving Morgs, but how to change my perspective. I fall alot but I pick myself up and gain a little momentum. Finding the calm in the storm!! Thankyou Jonsi. White light of protection to you and your family and also to our family here on this site, love Natalie