Posey,
I was in the same boat... almost exactly....I donot believe in suicide, however, I was at a point where I wanted to put my kids in the car, they have it too, and drive off of a cliff...... that's a hard thing to admit, because that kind of thinking only strengthens the "mentally ill" diagnosis. the same thing with seeing psychiatrist, ... was told I was not mentally ill... but I was willing to try anything to make the anxiety, the constant movement stop.
From my perspective.....my experience... chemical/medications......some seemed to help, some seemed give me relief,........ some seemed like it was killing it. However..... everything did not last forever, and it seemed that when I was finished taking all the meds I was worse off...... so far herbal/natural is actually longest lasting with results of healing... moving forward.
I know how hard this evil is to live with...... and I believe that the LORD knows too, I believe ...whatever helps you.........Thank you Jesus..... you gotta do what gotta do!!!
Love and prayers, kc
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