[maddie1540]

Hi from Folsom, CA (I hope I'm posting in the correct area). I've had this disease for years now, but was only diagnosed about five years ago with it in the left eye.I won't elaborate on the details, as you've heard them again and again! It has now progressed through my entire body. I am now at the point whereI'm 90% disfunctional (from fear, of course). The more I read the forum, it's seems the less I know about the disease and how to treat it environmentally.

I lost my home and car, rented an apartment which became infected, moved again, and am now living in a rented condo (I've been here for about a year) and this place seems worse than the others -- I'm afraid it's beyond recovery APPARENTLY, I'M DOING SOMETHING WRONG! The cabinets below the kitchen and bathroom sinks are are full of round swollen circles with a hole in the middle and I now have a nematode (about two inches long -- the one shaped like a comma, orange in color), sitting on top of my dryer. This is about the third one of these I've seen. My small balcony is turning blacker and blacker, and scatted with many strange bugs. I could go on and on!

I did read on lymebusters that if you have cabinets made out of pressboard, to get out fast -- something to do with the glue. This has proven to be true as everything I put in the cabinets starts attracting the black specks. Has anyone else had this problem with pressboard?

I live alone and have no help. I developed scoliosis with a 40% curve which was a shock, and have two disinegrated discs and two pinched nerves which inhibits me from doing a lot of heavy cleaning because of the swelling and pain in my back. There are times I can't even walk down the stairs. Like many others, I've lost my family and friends, etc. By the way, I agree with Barak (F---) them all!

Anyway, I've just about given up -- life is nothing but torture every day -- I'd rather be sleeping! Who wants to live everyday with paranoia and a mop -- that's no life for me! I don't know what to do or who I can talk to who could possibly give me some direction or some glimmer of hope. I've replaced two large mirrors in the bathroom and my medicine cabinet which were covered with, which I believe to be fungus.

I've lost my dignity, I've been ridiculed, was even arrested and taken to some pshco place for evaluation (released in an hour). I made a big mistake there -- should have tried to sue the sheriffs dept as they entered my house illegally, handcuffed me and threw me in a sheriff's car. The B------'-! I don't think they've ever heard language like that come out from an old lady's mouth.

Please forgive me for all the errors -- I can't believe I could have even typed this. I'M JUST TOTALLY GONE!!!

Any help you could give me would be so greatly appreciated -- you're about my last hope!

I'm sorry, I meant to start out by saying what a wonderful group of people you are with wonderful attitudes and courage.

Thank you so much.