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I'm waiting til my last 2 marks are gone and getting a recheck to confirm I killed the Morg and then I'll host an Irish Wake for it! My body kind of KNOWS, Jonsi, I can't explain, but I'm trying to keep grounded cuz we all have been let down a lot. I still have a few mos until I should be done healing. I kinda feel like the Morg might be gone now, (!) but I always thought when the last marks were gone, I'd know. I already feel like it's GONE, inside, though.
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I agree w you EnviroGirl in that to me it has NEVER been acceptable to think we would be somewhat OK or in remission. I want it 100% gone and I want to KNOW it's gone. (I even have something aobut that posted on my wall, lol.)
Please anyone/everyone take this in a positive way... it is just something I think is important to those of us who feel like we can't bear even one drop of this unhealthy stuff inside of us.
On the one hand, I totally agree w you EG, that sometimes you can just KNOW certain things. There is even scientific research about body cells, etc having knowledge. Often a "gut reaction" is a very accurate gauge of truth, etc.
At the same time, we are human, emotions are involved, etc. I would like to eventually find a 100% accurate test to KNOW it is completely gone. We need a standardized, replicable test we can all use to test even the DEEPEST suckers hiding!!! I know muscle testing works, but I do not know if it would work for every aspect of this eco-virus-thing. Some people might have miraculous exceptions where they just know it is resolved, but it would still be nice to have something to validate and confirm those feelings - and make it available to everyone.
I rarely have any marks on my skin at this point, although I am not sure if any of the "moles" are still appearing. I haven't noticed any new ones lately. But I know the M is still there and attacking in other ways.
For various reasons I am positive this partially resides in the DNA and chromosomes, etc., but can also go deeper into hiding. So in fighting against this and finding solutions, we need a test that can find every last pathogen involved and find it even hiding at the deepest level.