Hi There Fracty,
Thank You for replying.
It sounds as though we are seeing some of the same things in microscopy.
If I told everything I'd seen, then, I'd have to write a book.
Strange thing is, though. Everything I see in microscopic imaging has a face and a head. All of them. Not all examples I've seen of living organisms on Scientific Websites ... have faces. Some do, though. Heck, most of what I see has a head at both ends and a bunch of faces in the body. Whew!
I can see from expressions if they appear to be in agony. This is the prime thing I'm looking for. I can't see them move with my microscope though, but that could be because I've got them pasted in-between two wide pieces of cellophane tape.
But I can definitely see hateful looking expressions and mean faces. I can also see sinister grins. This sounds like lunacy, but it's all true.
One time a 'gang' got in which they did not like .... and I saw the war between the two 'gangs'.
One other (well there's not only ONE other thing, ha!) thing I have noticed is that 'the deeper' into the lesion I go, the more evil the faces look.
You know, Fracty, I've never talked about any of this to anyone...and sometimes a person needs to mention things like this to an understanding person.....within a safe space. Thank you for that.
In 2008 when this 'Mr Toads Wild Ride' started, I had green, moving fibers. They were very very small. When I looked at them with the microscope, I could see how they were all curved and tangled around and within themselves. I could see faces on those too. But those are the only fibers that I know of ... that I have had. Yet, the appearance of these horrible things look like morgs. The one with the skinny neck and bulb at the other end looks exactly like one of the morg photos I've seen on the web.
But, I have some really fantastically unusual entities saved. I mean, I even wonder if there's some other kind of WILD strain out there that is mixed up with the 'classic' morg group I know I have.
I don't think it will ever go away. This makes me feel very sad, and threatened. I got it to go away, or at least 'go back in' on all the other places on my body. But I fear I'll have to live with the face lesion for the rest of my life.
AND .... I'm so weary and tired of having to pull this stuff off of me at least twice a day. You know, I've got other things I'd really rather do with my time. I can't get anything to kill off all of them.
I know if I didn't try to 'get off' what I can that my whole face would probably be a big lesion. This is very disruptive to living a life. It's just so time consuming, ya' know?
And everytime I go out in public, there's this THING on my face. Sometimes I put a bandaid over it. Eh...well....as they say, 'it ain't over till it's over' and I'm a fighter, not a quitter.
I will try to upload some photos to the site. You may see 'familiar faces' there...and maybe some things you didn't see.....yet. I think it would have a healthy .... cathartic effect to upload some photos.
I'm laughing now because I'm thinking of Lily Tomlin. Did you see her special tv show years ago when she portrayed a character called Agnes Angst? Haaaaa ha ha ha . Whoooo. Yes, and she had a band too. Agnes Angst and the Manic Depressives was 'the act'. One of her lines was....'it's just a cathartic release, and I wouldn't hurt a fly.'
I draw a lot of strength from silly things like that. A sense of humor is a fantastic thing. Don't Cha Love It
