[Brenda]

....oh my God! i've been scrubbin walls, blinds everything because i thought this yellow sticky goo was nicotine. my mother smokes very heavily and i thought it was years of buildup even tho i've been scrubbin for 2 years now. i don't see a way to do all this by myself. i'm the only one that helps her and i've been so tired lately i want to give up. i don't really comb or brush my hair except in the shower and my mother doesn't shower. she wants to believe me but when it comes to HER or HER THINGS she is completely in denial. what is there to do when i'm sick and can't do what i have to do? i have ALL these symptoms and more plus i think i'm havin the herxes because i've been doin the treatment steps and tryin to do all the cleanin and workin 2 jobs. i bleach her brush and comb and 2 days later its just the same as if i did nothing. ......my first blog "critters" is the way i feel today.