Hiding?
When I'm not working or taking care of my family responsibilities, I have this and several other involvements that I split my free time between. Unfortunately, that doesn't allot me with near enough time to devote my attention to any one specific topic.
I am very thankful that I now have the ability to engage in multiple interests, and work. When I first became affected by this ailment, I was 100% afflicted. I couldn't think multiple thoughts. I couldn't get dressed on a daily basis without an anxiety attack. I couldn't remember what I was talking about - midsentence. I felt like I had the brain power of a Kindergartner. Life remained dysfunctional, this way, for over a year.
During the past 5 years, I have slowly recovered "me" and sometimes still fear the return of those pat disabling experiences.
As far as "where or how", this all began, I do not believe anyone one can know for sure. Not until we know exactly what it is. There are multiple theories that help us gains clues and piece our puzzles to and I can only speculate until that Revelation arrives. I had a very active life back then and there are various memories and avenues that lead to this road.
As information becomes available, each highlighted area of concern becomes apparent. For example:
Yes, I did have a leaking A/C system in my attic that created a mold in my home.
Yes, I was involved in extensive yard excavation that may have involved contaminated soil.
Yes, I did travel to another area and stayed in a hotel.
Yes, I did know someone else who had this problem before I did.
Yes, I drank unfiltered tap water at that time.
Yes, I did notice a strange webbing substances floating in the environment.
Yes, I did have a problem with bats in my attic.
I swam in a lake that I now know has Hazmat dumping. We were avid campers at multiple campgrounds between 2 states- I was bitten by a tick at one of these locations. I was over worked and became so stressed out that I had a nervous break down that could have caused a weakened immune system that created an open window for an infection to attack. And yes, my body was in toxic overload.
Now, which one of those should I pick. Maybe all, who knows.
Sorry you feel that way.  |