Welcome Ineedhelp,
When I first realized what I had and not thinking touched something in a store and then thinking I had contaminted it, I bought it whether I needed it or not. I felt it was the right thing to do. As time passed and I saw "it" (fibers) hanging all over my geographical area in all the stores I no longer felt I had to buy things I touched.
In the past I always tried clothes on before I purchased them. Now I buy them, take them home to try on and then shower. I use to do this due to chronic pain but didn't shower right away after trying them on. Whatever doesn't fit I take back because they were most likely infected in the first place. I take a shower because of the possibility of different infection causing vectors being on/in them. But I see these fibers in every store whether it is new clothes or a second hand store.
Our related churches in my area have a second hand store which raises money for the Churches High School. The place is filled with them fibers hanging on all the clothes. However, it is interesting that I never saw these fibers in the store until it was remodeled and expanded due to doing so well with business.
I think these fibers come off of other shoppers and also are delivered to stores this way. What baffles me is with so many people who have this, why is there nothing ever said about it in the paper or on the worldwide tv cable news?? Why is this such a hush-hush big secret?? I believe there has to be others in my area with this but I have not heard of any.
I have a granddaughter, 2 1/2 yrs old and I will not go near her. I have told my son and daughter-in-law about it because I love them. My whole family knows and they don't treat me like a leper or the like. I don't attend church anymore because I am afraid of leaving something behind which an elder person, young child, persons with comprimised immune system, or pregnant woman might pick up. I go to pastors house for Communion and I have Church Services MP3s sent to me via U.S. mail.
Some of this may sound ridiculous but th fact is there are too many unknowns. I can't and won't jeopardize others even if it means I have to stay away from them for the resr of my life. My son and I are going to get webcams so I can see my granddaughter this way.
I am Christian and so many times since I realized what was going on with me I have wanted to die. I felt like taking all the pills of everything I have and going to sleep forever. I aske my husband to shoot me. I 'd get days when I just sob because all I wanted was ro die. This laid a heavy guilt on me because life is a precious gift from God.
I believe God took me to the Book of James, Chapter 1 in the new Testament and this has helped me tremendously. Since that day I no longer have suicidal ideation. However, I'm going to talk with a Christian counselor on an ongoing basis because everyone needs someone to talk to. We need to unload. We need someone to just listen.
I pray for all here, not individually but as a group, and you will be in those prayers too.
May God bless you and ease your burden; helping you with the things you are unsure of.
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