[Kritters]

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Yesterday I walked intot he kitchen and realized I left the burner on from breakfast even after all the dishes & pots and pans were cleared.

It's really amazing, isn't it? Just today (all day) I had to lie down to nap several times, because just focusing was too tough for me.

So each time, while lying down and never napping, it took me five minutes to have a good talk to myself and say, "you will not let this creature control you for its own purposes it really probably doesn't even know it has. You didn't get this far in life only to give in to something this much smaller than you. Life is tough enough and after dealing with it for 60 years, you're going to lie down for a parasite???? I don't THINK so!!!!"

So I get up and piddle around some more, and think, "okay what can I focus on that makes me happy? Just do that right now and don't worry about anything else. Just now, just today" And I do, and here I am reading and researching to gain more knowledge.

In bed this morning, I swear I think I had signs of an imminent heart attack. I'd been having some major palps for about a year every so often, and I know it's because of the critter/s invading my body. So I thought it might be a good idea to get my things in order so my kids don't have to go through the task of finding my relevant stuff. It's a good idea anyway, so why not now? I'm not saying this to depress anyone, but to say that it gives me more impetus to be strong and research and hopefully gain some insight to anything that will help.

I'm re-reading the book DNA and taking notes, because I've made a majorly brilliant friend in the field of biology who has so patiently tried to answer my questions. I have so many more.

Back to the subject, though.

I think when you're alone, the key is to gather things around you to make yourself happy in the moment. Hopefully you can. I have to make a living and now more than ever, but I just trust the benevolent power that is to bring me through this, and I hope you do as well.

Just.....breathe. relax. enjoy.
xoxo
Kritters