[deluded]

I believe that my CFS is the 2nd worst thing...u also get this with the Fibromyalgia, which seems like a double edged sword...and now with the Morgellon's too...well, I am just wondering...how much tirederrrrr will can I get...it is so hard just to make myself get in the shower and wash and dry my hair...the hair dryer feels like it weighs a million pounds...and by the time I am done with it all, I feel like collapsing in the middle of it...feel like sitting down in the shower, even...I am overweight, gaining most of the weight in the past year...depression also makes you really tired, and no one understands why you can't get things done...you look normal...and sometimes even sound that way...but then why is it that you just want to lay around and do only what is absolutely necessary...and sometimes not that....well, it isn't out of laziness...it is just trying to get the energy to walk across the floor some days...so, to sum that all up...yes, the fatigue is overwhelming and besides the pain, one of the reasons that I cannot work...or if someone asks me if I would like to go do this or that next week...well, er, I really couldn't say for sure...I try to think positive and say that I hope that I will be able to do it or go, but the truth is that it will all depend on what that day holds, and how I am feeling...I try like most, I am sure, to do as much as you can get done, but that is not always a good thing,, because it can put you in a position that you have to recover from doing too much...which in reality is not that much, except to someone who is tired all the time...if you do too much, you will undoubtedly have to rest for a longer period of time, because the energy to go, just won't come...